His cock ached when he realized he hadn’t brought any condoms with him. His reason for traveling to Tabiq hadn’t been to have sex. If anything, it was to avoid it at all costs. Now he could kick himself for not putting one in his wallet. “Fuck.”
Ziva looked up at him. “What’s the matter?”
He could tell from her expression she thought it was something she’d done. “My sweet, I don’t have any protection with me.”
She relaxed some with his response. He, on the other hand, felt anything but relaxed. His cock was begging for release.
Ziva reached down between his legs and took hold of him. He didn’t need any more torture than he already had. “Please, Ziva, we can’t.”
“Alex, I know my cycle. I’m safe.”
Those were words no man ever believed or shouldn’t anyway. They’d trapped so many men in unwanted relationships. But Ziva wasn’t that type, and with her, he didn’t feel trapped. From day one, he felt she could read his soul. They hadn’t spoken many words to each other, apart from the day she took him to the prison. Yet here he was. With her. Tasting her. Wanting her. What surprised him the most was, he felt more comfortable with her than he did with anyone else. He never knew it would be so easy with someone. So quickly. Trapped was the last thing he felt when he was near her.
Looking at her, he knew she was serious, and he didn’t care if she became pregnant. Until her, he wanted to spend his life alone, unattached. Home wasn’t a place he wanted to be. It was just an address. He called her my sweet because that’s who she was when he thought of her. Nothing but sweet. And mine.
He hadn’t realized he was smiling until she mentioned it. “What are you smiling about?”
Alex would tell her, later. “Just admiring the view,” he said instead. Still true.
She smiled at him, as she pulled him to her. “Then admire me closer.”
He paused and looked into her eyes one more time and knew he was lost. He saw his own desire matched with hers.
He didn’t want to take his eyes off her, and she seemed the same. As he buried himself deep inside her, he captured her lips with his and mumbled her name into her mouth. Their moans blended as they became one. Once he knew she’d adjusted to him—and his size—he slowly began to move inside her. My sweet, you feel amazing.
He started slowly at first, but she met him with her hips, encouraging him to take her deeper, faster. As their bodies came together, again and again, it was like nothing he’d felt before. This was far more than a physical act. It wasn’t fucking. This was making love to someone. A feeling he’d never experienced before. An emotion he thought he was incapable of having.
Overtaken by the need within him, he began moving faster and deeper; her moans grew louder with each thrust. He gripped her hips and met her again and again. He could feel her body tense beneath him as she rocked with a second release. When she clenched around him, he lost what little control he had. Plunging one last time into her, he shuddered with his release.
They lay holding each other, panting. He couldn’t imagine having sex again with anyone else, knowing how amazing it was with someone you... cared deeply about.
Alex wasn’t ready to say love. He had no clue what that word truly meant. He’d heard it used by so many people that it had lost its meaning. Yet, holding her tenderly against him now, he couldn’t think of any other word that explained what he felt.
He’d promised her they’d talk later. That’s what tomorrows are for. Right now, I want to enjoy what we shared. Maybe again in a few minutes.
“I didn’t know, Alex. I didn’t know it could be like this. It was... so amazing,” Ziva said breathlessly.
“I didn’t know either, my sweet.” I truly didn’t.