I don’t sleep with them. Heck, I can count on one hand the girls I've slept with, and everyone that wasn't Kaylee felt wrong like I was cheating on her, even though I wasn't.
Somehow over time, it's become a game to the girls in town, trying to see who will finally get me to settle down. I stopped going on dates and put my head down to take care of the ranch and spend what time with Kaylee I could.
What I have always pictured is running this ranch with Kaylee. It was always her I pictured by my side. Even as kids, before I understood my feelings, I saw us working the ranch together.
But I’ve got to get out of my head, so I take a look around the bar. Chase and Josie catch my eye on the other side. They recently got their chance at happiness and watching the way Chase looks at Josie, well, it would make anyone want what they have.
Why couldn't it work out for me and Kaylee, too? It might not be easy as we’ll have to work at it. I know that, but we have been through so much more than other couples will ever go through, and we are only stronger for it.
Watching how Josie looks up at Chase, with as much love in her eyes for him as he has for her, I know I want that. And I want it with Kaylee, and I plan to do whatever it takes to make it happen.
As I leave the bar, I know I can't lose her, and I want more than friendship.
It's time to get her back. Though I’ll need a game plan, but I’ll be going after her. Sooner rather than later.