“You make me crazy.” His mouth comes to my ear. “You always have and I’m guessing you always will. But I love that crazy. I love you, Orchard. I married you because I love you.” He turns me in his arms. “Do I ever do anything that I don’t want to do?” I shake my head no. He doesn’t do anything he doesn’t want. “You really think I’d get married because it would make someone else happy? That I give two fucks what anyone else thinks?” My mouth opens and closes. No, but… my mind blanks. None of this makes any sense. Why wait all of this time to tell me?
“You didn’t know me when you married me. How could you love me?”
Heath lets out a humorless laugh. “You had me from the very first moment you stormed into your father’s office while barking about shipments. You were all fire and passion and I wanted it all to myself.” I remember that day. I hadn’t seen him at first standing off to the side in my father’s office. Then once I noticed him, I’d wanted a hole to open up and swallow me.
He was the most handsome man I’d ever seen and I’d been a hot mess in my overalls covered in dirt and sweat. He had been in one of his suits that I could tell had been tailored specifically for him. I’d instantly felt a flutter as he looked at me. That was until he opened his mouth.
“Why wait all this time to tell me? Five years, Heath. We could have had the last five years together.” In an instant, I see the look of regret on his face.
“I thought you hated me. I was waiting for you to be ready but had resigned myself to the fact that the day may never come.” Sadness creeps into me, thinking about all the time we’ve lost. It’s then I decide that I won’t waste another second. “I knew I took you. It was selfish so I told myself I’d give you time. Let you go to college. Do what you wanted and I’d wait.” My fingers dig into his shirt. “I couldn’t leave you with your father. What if he tried to give you to someone else?” He grits out the last part.
He lifts me off my feet, carrying me into my bedroom. He sits down in one of my oversized chairs with me in his lap. He buries his face in my neck. “Please don’t leave me.” He runs his nose along my neck before he starts to slowly place kisses there. I close my eyes as emotions overrun me. His arms around me hold me tight.
Isn’t this what I’ve always wanted? A husband that loves me more than anything in the whole world? Have I had that this whole time and I didn’t know it? The very things I found so annoying about him now are endearing. Him always wanting to know where I am. Insisting that I spend my nights here having dinner with him. Was he trying to show me he loves me in his own way?
“You haven’t been with anyone else, have you?” I remember his words from our wedding night. “You didn’t take me as a favor?” He shakes his head no in my neck.
“I didn’t want the shipyards. I wanted you.” He kisses my neck again. “I was stupid for the things I said. I didn’t know what I was doing. I was in love for the first time and the woman I loved hated me.” Another kiss. “There have been no other women. You’re my wife. Not only did I mean my vows when I said them, but you’re all I want. All I’ll ever want. I won’t settle for less. For me it’s you or nothing.” He leans back, his eyes locking with mine. “I love you,” he says again, making me burst into tears.
23
Heath
“I’m not saying it anymore if it makes you cry.” I wipe her tears away with my thumbs. She laughs but the tears don’t stop so I kiss her, tasting the salt and sweetness all in one.
I stand with her in my arms. Shoes get kicked off, clothes are removed, and then there’s just her and me. It’s skin on skin, slick softness and heated steel melding into one. I press her against the wall, impaling her on my cock like some warprize.
She is mine, I scream in my head as I pound into her. I suckle on her neck and then her tits until bruises form. She digs her nails in deep as if she’s trying to claw her way into my heart. The pain mixes with the pleasure until it reaches some otherworldly nirvana. My cum jets into her molten cunt in hot, repeated streams. We’re going to make a baby this time. I know it.