Chapter Four
Marigold couldn’t stopherself from glancing over at Darren’s office. The door was shut, but he had been doing that a lot lately. She had no idea if he was inside. She was tempted to go over and see if he was, but then that would lead to some awkward questions, and Marigold didn’t know if she had the answers.
She had screwed up. She knew that much. And now everything was tightening inside her to the point it felt like it was going to explode. Marigold felt on the cusp of being overwhelmed.
This should have been sorted out weeks ago. Instead, they had gone about things without speaking about that night for three months. Not a good idea.
Marigold couldn’t stop thinking about that night, and how amazing it had been. She had never been with that many guys in quick succession before, and now she realized why she hadn’t done it until this. It was too addictive. Once you got three guys touching you and watching you fuck the others, the thought of going back to one felt rather bland.
She wanted to talk about it, ask if they could make it a regular hookup thing. But how did you bring up something like that in conversation? It wasn’t as if she could bring it up casually. Besides, Marigold had heard Darren say just for one night. He wouldn’t be up for doing it more than that.
Her heart fluttered as she remembered how Darren had been with her. He was so gentle with her, as if he expected her to break into pieces. She had loved the way he ran his hands over her body, making everything he touched come alive. It was like he worshiped her.
It was the opposite of Jake and Nathan. Jake was just hard and solid, moving at a pace Marigold loved, even if she couldn’t keep up with it. And Nathan...he really liked to tease her, alternating between the two speeds to the point Marigold was practically begging for him to finish her. It felt incredible with all three of them.
Individually, though. Marigold had asked for that, and they allowed it. What would it be like with all three of them at once? Her body tightened at the thought of it happening.
But she knew it couldn’t happen. If they did it more than once, someone was going to catch feelings, and then it would just be awkward. What if she fell for one of them, and decided she wanted just them? That would leave everything in a mess.
You’ve already caught feelings for them. You’ve wanted Darren for months, and now you’ve been with Jake and Nathan, you want them as well. You wouldn’t be able to choose even if you wanted to.
Marigold groaned and slumped on her desk, her head on her arms. What had she done? This had been something to giggle about as she and Allison compared notes, but now it was different. Now there was an ache that wouldn’t go away.
Allison had told her things worked out with more than one guy, and she was capable of handling it. Could Marigold be brave enough to ask, and then handle it, herself?
“What’s wrong with you?”
Marigold looked up. Allison was standing by her desk, watching her in bemusement. Marigold sighed and forced herself to sit up.
“When I know, I’ll be sure to tell you.”
“Tetchy today, aren’t you?”
“No more than usual.” Marigold gestured at the pizza boxes in Allison’s hands. “Lunch?”
“Yep. I thought it would be nice to have something that can last us a few days. Besides,” Allison winked as she put the boxes on another table, “I’m craving a little bit of pizza.”
Marigold blinked.
“What? You’re not...”
“I’m not pregnant. Don’t look at me like that.” Allison laughed. “Even the boys said it was too early. But let’s just say they’re giving me a huge appetite, and I need to make up the calories they keep burning off me.”
Marigold groaned. She didn’t want to think about Allison having her fun with Leon and Stephen. For the most part, she was happy for her friend and that she had decided to stay with her men, as she called them, but there was a tiny part of her that was jealous. Jealous that Allison had it all and Marigold was struggling.
Then again, Allison was far more confident than her. Her friend wouldn’t think so, but she had been able to approach the guys and tell her that she wanted both of them. Marigold wasn’t able to do that; she felt like an idiot for even wanting more than one night. What if the guys didn’t? She knew Darren didn’t want to share her again, but from the way he had been with her that night...
“Marigold?”
Marigold jumped.
“Huh?”
“I said do you want a slice?” Allison opened up one of the boxes. “You like the hot veggie one, don’t you?”
“I...” Marigold’s stomach growled, reminding her that she hadn’t eaten since breakfast, and even then she hadn’t eaten much. “Sure. I’ll take a slice.”
Allison arched an eyebrow.