I nod, biting my lip. His eyes flit to the movement, and I’m sure he likes it. And there’s the unmistakable fact of his rock-hard cock.
We’re doing something new here, erotic, all while mutually choosing to pretend we’re not.
I like this new game, even if I shouldn’t.
“Okay,” I murmur, pushing away the small voice which tells me I look ridiculous.
“More,” he whispers.
I bend over and reach forward, propping my hands against the backdrop lightly to give myself some balance.
When I look over my shoulder, I’m gifted with a photo of lust.
Felix is staring at me over the camera, his lips tight, his eyes wide. He’s staring at my ass like it’s taking every single part of him not to leap at me, to touch me.
The fantasies I’ve entertained countless times swarm into me, but a cruel thought follows them.
If he starts with actual sexual stuff, I’ll have to stop him.
For Lola.
Or maybe that’s a lie. Maybe it’s the thought of him finding out I’m a freaking fraud.
I can pose, fine. And maybe I can even make him excited, which is a miracle.
But actually do anything?
I quiet down the flurrying thoughts, telling myself to go with the flow.
“Fuck,” he whispers.
“What?” I ask. “It’s not good?”
He shakes his head slowly. “R-reach back.”
I pause at the catch in his voice. I never imagined Felix could sound like this, unsure and brimming with passion at the same time, sort of like how I sound.
It makes me more certain we’re caught in this together, swept up in this unique and tempting trap.
“Why?” I ask.
He shakes his head again as though emerging from sleep – coming to his senses. “Forget I said that.”
“I can’t,” I say, ignoring the ache in my back as I stand here bent over. It’s so worth it. “I don’t want to.”
“Faye….”
“Why do you want me to reach back?”
He glances at the door as though to confirm we’re alone. “I….”
“What?” I urge, hoping I don’t sound desperate.
But I am.
My core is pulsing, sending urgent sensations all through my body, telling me this is my chance.
It’s like I can sense how badly he wants to fuck me, to drive up deep and explode with everything he has, to flood my body with his seed, to give us no freaking choice but to start a family together.