“It wouldn’t be terrible. I really like Hux. We get along super well, I like how he tops me, he makes me feel looked after but not incapable. He’s really smart and attentive and fuck me, but he’s handsome.”
“I might need more kettle corn, because you’re taking forever to get to the point.”
“He wants a little. Like, alittlelittle.”
“And you’re a middle.”
“Yes.”
“But if everything else is so amazing, is that really a dealbreaker? Maybe you could find ways to compromise. Or maybe you could be together in all the ways that fit and have play partners who meet the rest of your needs.”
“That’s possible,” Tamsyn allowed.
She’d never been a particularly jealous person. But the idea of Hux calling anyone elselittle girlmade it feel as though she had flames coming out the sides of her face, like she might throw a tantrum. Had she backed herself into a corner where everyone was going to be miserable? Maybe she should just call the whole thing off.
“I can feel you thinking all the way from here. Smells like burnt popcorn so knock it off, you’re ruining my snack.”
“Maybe that’s just Reid being talented in the kitchen,” she teased.
“Nope, it’s definitely your brain on fire. Very particular odor.”
“I don’t like the idea of sharing him,” she admitted.
“But you’re okay with him sharing you with his brother? How is that going to work, anyway? Is it like a one off?”
“I mean, I hope I’ll be getting off at least twice, once for each twin,” she joked, and Maddie laughed.
It was nice to hear her BFF laugh. Made her feel like they were back in their apartment in Penshaw even as she was in Clover City and Maddie was out in Montana.
“I don’t know exactly how it’s going to work, but the way Hux talks about it, it doesn’t sound like it’s one wild night.”
“Hmm. So like on Sesame Street, they talk about all of the time foods and some of the time foods. Sounds like maybe being with both of them is an all of the time food?”
With anyone else, using Sesame Street to talk about the threesome she was about to have, or perhaps more accurately the throuple she was possibly establishing, would’ve been weird. But this was Maddie and mixing kid stuff with very grown-up things was par for the course.
“It kinda does.”
After she’d agreed to come to Hux’s house, he’d told her more about what they were hoping for and it had scared and thrilled her in equal measure. He and Lowell wanted a girl to spoil and share. Hux had been very careful not to saylittlegirl, but she’d heard it anyway.
If she didn’t want to be a little to one man, how would being a little for two be any better? She didn’t think it would be. Maybe worse, even.
“But you haven’t met the brother?” Maddie asked.
“No, I haven’t met Lowell. Seen him, heard him. Hux talks about him a lot.” She left off the part about how she’d fantasized about Lowell, brought herself off over and over and over imagining the three of them together. “I kind of feel like I know him already though? It’s weird.”
“Well, he’s not going to be just a modified copy of Hux.”
“No, I know. That’s how I thought of him at first, but the more I’ve heard about him, and, uh…”
“It’s okay, you can tell me you’ve been internet stalking those guys. I would.”
“Yes, I’ve watched some videos, okay? And Hux is always in the front, giving his speeches and talking to people and”—she hadn’t watched the footage of his heart attack again, but she didn’t have to. Every second of it was seared into her brain—“and Lowell is always there in the background, whispering to people and typing on his phone, and looking handsome as hell. But watching them together makes it clear how different they are.”
“And you think you’re going to like them both?”
“I really do,” she admitted, poking a finger into her bowl of popcorn.
“Now I’m really failing to see why this would be terrible. Having two hot men who are totally into you? That’s basically a romance novel but in real life.”