Prologue
There’s a difference between living and surviving, and this was neither. My life was never going forward. It had always been on hold while I dealt with everyone else—my mother, my father, my keepers. I was finally gifted a few months in which I fell in love with a man who made me feel more alive than I ever thought possible. Now, because of me, he’s been ripped from my life, murdered in the worst way possible for all of us to witness, and I lost our unplanned baby. There is nothing left of me to pick up the pieces; I don’t even want to. So here I am, gun to my head, waiting to join my little family on the other side.