“What about if I’m fine with it? Maybe I’m not convinced you love me.”
He lies back on the blanket, taking me with him and pulling me up until we’re chest to chest and our faces are centimeters apart.
“I have ways of persuading you,” he says, nibbling the line of my throat, his hand wandering up over the rise of my hip.
“Hmmm. I remember the last time we were up on this roof, all the persuading you did. Is that what I should expect?”
As he looks into my eyes, the laughter fades from his expression.
“You should expect that when the time is right,” he says, his voice sure and fervent. “I’ll ask you to marry me and refuse to settle for anything but yes.”
The teasing smile dies on my lips as emotion warms my heart.
“You should expect that I’m going to spoil you and take care of you and remind you every day that I may not deserve you, but I’m never letting you go.”
Tears gather at the corners of my eyes, and I let them fall.
“That night right here,” he says, looking around the rooftop, “should have been our beginning, but instead everything went wrong. Everything in my life went right, except that. Except you.”
And it changed everything, he’s right. If Cliff had shown restraint, not punched that coach—if he hadn’t let his resentment eat away at him, hadn’t turned to drugs…his life could have been exactly as he’d envisioned. I could have avoided an army of frogs before I found my prince. But in the time apart from Naz, I grew into myself. Learned to accept my preferences, my desires. I learned to listen to my body and trust my instincts. I learned what a good friend is. I learned the difference between a good man and a bad one. What I was willing to accept and what I couldn’t do without. Those years made me. They made Naz. Maybe the same forces that pushed us apart when we were so young, so untried, delivered me literally into Naz’s arms when he was ready for me and I was ready for him.
“You know,” I say, huddling deeper into him, “this was where I came to dream. It was the place where I felt closest to the stars. Where they felt brightest. It’s where we first kissed.” I pause to caress the strong planes of his face. “I used to think this rooftop held some kind of magic.”
“And now?” he asks, his lips quirking with a smile.
“Now,” I say, looking at the most beautiful boy who, despite all odds, became the love of my life and found his way back to me, “now I know it does.”