“I want you to take my clothes off,” Xavier tells me in a low growl.
As if in a trance, I move closer to him, unzipping and unbuttoning his pants. I slide them down off his legs, exposing a thick bulge hidden only by the fabric of his silky black boxers.
“Slow down,” he smirks at me. “We’ve got all night.”
Except Xavier is wrong. I may have all night, but he doesn’t. As soon as I pluck the courage to do it, I’m going to kill him and end my family’s debt with the Scorpion cartel once and for all.
I hook my fingers in Xavier’s boxers and slowly peel them off him. Any thought I had before is instantly erased once his cock springs free, because he’s enormous. I’ve never seen a naked man before, but his sheer size is intimidating as hell.
“You’ll never fit inside me,” I whisper before I can stop myself.
“I’ll make myself fit.”
I still can’t believe this is happening. And that I’m so scared I haven’t done what I’m supposed to do. The longer I take, the harder it will be for me to do it.
“You’ve had enough control for now,” Xavier says in a low growl. “Lie on your back. I’m going to fuck you, and you’re going to look me in the eye when we come together.”
I feel the blush creeping into my cheeks. Somewhere far away, alarm bells ring in my head, but I tune them out.
I lie on my back, and Xavier gets on top of me. Our naked bodies press against each other, the heat of our emotions making the room unbearably steamy. This isn’t at all what I expected. I thought he’d be rough, mean. I thought he’d dominate me and force me to do things I couldn’t have pictured in my wildest nightmares.
As if he’s reading my mind, Xavier brushes some hair off my face, saying, “Tonight is the only time I will have mercy on you, because it’s your first time. After tonight, things will be rougher. But I want you to have one nice memory. See how good I can treat you when you’re a good girl? You will not fight me again. Do you fucking understand?”
I nod robotically. I should fight him, but there’s no point. He’ll overpower me so easily.
“Spread your legs for me.”
My body does what he wants of its own accord. He stares at me hungrily, as if he’s about to devour me whole.
“You ready for my cock, angel?”
Panicked, I shake my head no, but it’s too late. Xavier grabs his dick and forces it inside me in one fell swoop. All the air is knocked out of my lungs and my mind spins from the feeling of having him inside me.
It doesn’t hurt at all. It feels good. Better than anything I’ve ever felt before, like finding the missing puzzle piece and becoming whole for the first time in my life.
“Why d-doesn’t i-it hurt?” I get out as he thrusts once inside me. “Please, Xavier! It’s supposed to hurt.”
“You’re such a little pain whore,” he grunts, pulling his cock out and making me cry out from the loss.
One thrust. One thrust was all it took to make me completely addicted to the man I’m supposed to hate more than anybody else in this world.
“W-Where’s the b-blood?” I manage, looking at his throbbing cock. “There’s n-no b-blood...”
He smirks at me. At that moment, he looks truly evil, like the villain from a fairytale.
“There will be no blood tonight,” he tells me in a low voice.
“You’re supposed to bleed when you lose your virginity,” I whisper, shaking all over. Mixed desires of wanting to run and needing him inside me are rendering me needy. “Why am I not bleeding?”
“I already took that from you.” Xavier’s cruel smirk makes me blanch. “You were fast asleep. It was so fucking easy, and so damn beautiful, Tallulah. I’m sorry you had to miss it.”
A silent tear rolls down my cheek. God, how I want to hate him. How I want to dig my claws into his handsome face. And yet I do nothing of the sort. Somewhere deep down, I’ve already decided to go through with this before I deliver the fatal blow. I’m going to let Xavier fuck me. I keep telling myself it’s for him, for everything he’s given me over the years. But deep down, I know I’m doing this because I’m a greedy little girl.
He’s back on top of me again. Even though Xavier said he would not hurt me tonight, he thrusts inside me with punishing force, making me cry out with a mixture of pleasure and pain. I never thought pain could be enjoyable. I’ve been trained to deliver it, not feel it... But now that I’ve had one taste, I’m already addicted.
Soon enough, Xavier’s rough thrusts make it impossible for me to think about anything other than submitting to him fully. I want him to have me. I tell myself it’s because the first and last time he’s inside me, but I don’t even believe it. I don’t know how I’m supposed to take his life after this.