“I only said that shit because I couldn’t stop giving you my attention,” I said, low and urgent, willing him to really hear me. “Because whenever you’re around, you’re the only person I can see. Doesn’t matter if I’m in the middle of a game or the middle of a critical mission. Doesn’t matter if you’ve just said something insulting that slashed my ego to ribbons. When you open your mouth, I can’t not listen for your voice. When you’re in the room, I can’t not follow your every movement. When you’re anywhere close to me, Kevin Rogers, I can’t not wish that you were right here in my arms, and when you’re in my arms, I can’t help but wish I… fuck.”
I kissed him, licking at his lips until he parted them, allowing me to taste his sweetness. I wanted to swallow him whole, lose myself in his body, and beg him never to leave.
Most of all, I wanted him to believe, down to his bones, that he was desirable. He was worthy.
He was everything.
I kissed him until we were breathless. When I pulled back, his eyes were dazed behind crooked glasses. “You… you wish what?”
“Tell me to stop,” I whispered, peppering his cheeks and chin with smaller kisses. “Tell me to leave you alone.”
I moved my hands around to his slender back. The muscles shifted under his sweatshirt as his arms reached up to circle my neck.
“What if… what if I don’t want you to leave me alone?” he murmured. The flags of embarrassment still painted his cheeks, and now his nose was pink from my beard. My heart hammered in my chest. “Tell me what you wish, Hux.”
“When you’re in my arms, I wish that you were even closer,” I admitted in a whisper. “Under my lips. Under my hands. In my bed.”
Kev’s whole body shivered in my arms, and his eyes widened, but just when I worried that I’d freaked him out, he pushed himself closer to me. “Hux…”
“I’ll do anything to make you feel good. Just tell me.”
The corner of Kev’s mouth turned up. I could still see shock and a little fear in his eyes, but when he bit down on his lower lip, his whole face took on a teasing light, and it called to me like a fucking siren, luring me even closer to him. “So, just for the record, you don’t hate me?”
I held him closer to my body so he could feel the press of my hard dick against his lower belly. “Does it feel like I hate you?”
“And you’re saying I don’t annoy you.”
I shook my head, even as my insides lit up at his challenging tone. He wasn’t going to make this easy on me, which only made me prouder of him.
“Oh, no, you do. You annoy the fuck out of me, every moment of every day. You’re annoyingly sexy. So annoyingly sweet. And really annoyingly intelligent. I can’t stop thinking about you. Can’t stop wanting you. Drives me insane.”
His teeth sank further into his plump lip, and my dick literally pulsed against my zipper.
“Let me touch you,” I said in a rough voice, my hands caressing up and down his back, trying to map every inch of his body. “Let me kiss you all over.”
Maybe then I’ll get you out of my system once and for fucking all, I thought a little desperately, even though I already knew better.
“Like… naked?” Kev pretended to sound shocked, though his eyes danced.
I held back a snort of laughter. “Naked! God, no. What kind of guy do you think I am? I meant I wanted to taste your cotton-blend hoodie.” I buried my nose at the join of his shoulder and bit him through the cloth.
“O-oh,” he stammered. “I had no idea you had a fiber kink.”
“You should see how crazy I get when I get my tongue on worn denim,” I purred in his ear.
Kev pressed himself against me with a shiver. “Can we… can we go to my, um, bedroom?” he asked, looking over my shoulder at the doorway through which my boss had only left a few minutes earlier.
“Yes. Definitely yes.”
“But I don’t want…” He paused as if trying to figure out the right words. “It’s not that I don’t want to… I’m just not sure I want everything.”
I cupped his cheek and met his eyes. “Kev. I don’t want to do anything you don’t want to do. If it doesn’t feel good or you don’t want to do something, just tell me to stop, and I will.” Even though it will kill me.
He blew out a breath and smiled in relief. “Yeah. Okay. Yeah.”
God, he was adorable. I wanted to fuck him into the floor, but I also wanted to put him in my pocket and keep him safe for all time. I wanted to protect him from all the assholes in the world, starting with Anomaly451 and ending with… well, me. But I was too selfish for that.