Allie waits until I’ve eaten about half of my sandwich to ask, “How’s it going with the guys?”
“You just want me for gossip,” I say.
“Yep. That’s the only reason. Spill.”
“Well… you won’t judge me?”
"No. Seriously? I was with them all. Not at the same time, but I know what you're going through. To some extent, anyhow."
“Yes, you went from one to another, but did you have feelings for them all at the same time?”
“No.”
“So, not exactly the same thing.” I dip a fry into ketchup but don’t eat it. “Rob and I, we were dating. Exclusive. He broke up with me. I think he just wanted an excuse to end things, and then… We ended up sleeping together, but after Ace’s big game, he and I got together…”
“So you have feelings for two of them.”
“No. I’ve slept with two of them, but if Zac would give me the time of day… He told me some confidential information that I don’t know if you know.”
“What’s that?”
I grimace.
“No, that’s fine. I shouldn’t have asked. What about Gabe?”
“We haven’t done much of anything sexually, but I want to. And I don’t know. I don’t think it’s just lust. I care for all of them, but… No buts. I care deeply about them all. Not love. Not going there.”
“But it could head that way?” Allie asks.
“I don’t know. Ugh. Doesn’t this make me a terrible person?”
“Have you read any romance novels ever?”
“Not really. I prefer mysteries.”
“Well, I love romances, especially paranormal romances. How many love triangles are there?”
“A ton, I’m sure. It always used to drive me nuts to read about love triangles because I never understood how a girl could equally love two guys and not know which one she truly wanted to be with.”
“And now?”
“Now, I understand that completely, but four? Four? And they’ll never go for it, and—”
“Does Rob know about you and Ace?”
“Only if Ace told him, but Rob made it clear we aren’t back together. We aren’t exclusive, and Ace knows that. I just… I shouldn’t like them all, but I can’t deny my attraction.”
“Well, here’s this. There are a ton of hot guys in the club, so if you find yourself attracted to them all to the point of wanting to jump their bones, that means one thing.”
“Oh, yeah? What’s that?”
“That you’re one super horny chick.”
We burst out laughing.
Allie leans forward. “But if you aren’t, that means something else entirely.”
I swallow hard. “I should be normal. I should be able to choose one.”