And hope he understood.
The library empty on this early in the morning, and I passed through the stacks like a shadow until I got to the private study rooms. I closed the door behind me, and slumped down against it as I hit the call button in my phone while the tears started to trickle down my cheeks
“Hey gorgeous, you’re up early.”
His voice did it, and I started to cry.
“Hey, hey! Christina, what’s-”
“I need to tell you something.” I could feel the dagger twisting in my heart, and I wanted to just hang up right then, but I knew there was no avoiding this.
“Okay? What’s up?”
“I need to tell you something big.”
Tyler cleared his throat. “What is it, Christina.”
“I-”
I what? I cheated on you with my best friend? God I was awful.
“Chris, honey, what is it.”
I started to cry harder then, because I knew the second I said it, it was all going to change.
“Baby, what is it?”
“I’m horrible,” I said softly, feeling my breath hitch in my throat.
Tyler chuckled. “Honey, whatever it is-”
“I cheated on you.”
Silence.
Tyler went utterly silent on the phone, but I could practically hear hi seething with rage on the other end.
“Tyler-”
“Yeah don’t bother,” he growled roughly.
“No, wait! Please!” I sobbed. “It was-”
- Click -
I dropped the phone to the ground and sank my face into my hands, sobbing at the sound of him hanging up.
Chapter 28
Christina
And just like that, I was right back in that fucking hole I’d been in before. Just like that, it was over.
I cheated on you.
Yeah, I didn’t need to hear anything else after that. I didn’t need to hear the fucking details. What I needed to do was get in my car, drive to Boston, find the piece of shit fucking garbage who’d touched her and dismember him limb-from-limb. I wanted to destroy, to smash something beautiful, to tear down the world around me.
Instead, I grabbed a bottle of whiskey, went right to the guest house studio, and played. And I played fucking loudly. It was seven in the damn morning, but I didn’t care. I cracked the bottle, cranked that shit up, and just fucking played until my Goddamn fingers and ears bled. I didn’t care. Cause this shit hurt. It hurt in a way finding out about Rebecca an