He didn’t do connections, emotional or otherwise.
Not for a long time and not ever again.
“Hi,” Sadie murmured. “Carrick? Um, why are you here?”
“Just checking up on you.” He’d been aiming for casual but missed it by a mile.
“You look...” Carrick stumbled again, searching for the correct word. She was dressed in a red, off-the-shoulder, slouchy sweater over black leggings, and fluffy black socks. Her face was makeup free and her hair was tied up in a messy tail. A tiny dressing covered the cut on her throat.
He’d never seen anyone more beautiful. And, God, alive...
Sadie stepped back to allow him into the apartment. “Sorry, I’m a hot mess. I wasn’t expecting company. Come in.”
Why did women think being a hot mess was a bad thing?
Sadie shut the door behind him and looked down to the huge bouquet of flowers he carried. He wasn’t sure what she liked so he’d told the florist to give her everything. The result was a riot of color and fragrance.
“Are those for me?”
Well, yes. Of course.
Carrick nodded and when he handed it over, Sadie disappeared behind the blooms and the greenery. No, he needed to see her face, to keep looking at her...
Why?
This wasn’t like him and he didn’t understand it. Long and happily divorced, he marched to the beat of his own drum, had no time for complicated emotions and didn’t do clarifications, explanations or elaborations, to himself or to others.
He loved and protected his siblings and was loyal to the few close friends he had...
But Sadie Slade was neither family nor friend. So why was he reacting like this?
Sadie looked at him across the heads of the multicolored blooms. “Are you planning on talking to me?”
Talking was overrated; he could get his point across in other ways. Pulling the expensive bouquet from her arms, he dropped it to the floor. He hesitated for a moment, waiting for her to protest. When none came, he covered her mouth with his, drinking in her heat, her spice...her goddamn alive-ness.
Carrick moved her back so that she rested against the wall and then rested his palm against the cool plaster above her head. He wouldn’t touch her with anything but his mouth. Because if he did, he wouldn’t stop until he had her naked, panting and screaming his name.
Sadie had no problem using her hands, and he felt her tugging his shirt from his pants, and then her hands were on the bare skin above his belt, skimming across his spine. Every muscle in his body contracted and he wondered where all the oxygen in the room had gone.
But it didn’t matter because Sadie was kissing him. And kissing him with a lot of enthusiasm.
Sadie’s tongue pushed into his mouth and she wrapped her arms around his waist, silently telling him that she wanted him—this—as much as he did. Unable to keep his hands to himself, not for one more second, he floated his palm across the bare skin revealed by her oversize sweater and marveled at the softness. Would she be this soft everywhere?
“Touch me, Carrick,” Sadie murmured. Her breathy words, punctuated by kisses, was all the encouragement he needed. He pulled her sweater up so he could access her fragrant skin. No bra, thank God. Dropping his head to kiss her throat, he told her exactly what he wanted to do to, and with, her.
Her excited, low pitched murmurs encouraged him to do all that. And more.
When she pulled his hand up to cover her breast, he groaned at the feel of her taut nipple pushing into his hard palm. Needing to taste her, Carrick pulled her sweater up and over her head, looking down at sheer perfection when she was exposed to his hot gaze.
Firm, high breasts, pretty pink nipples...
“I can’t wait to taste you.” Carrick bent his head and laved her with his tongue before sucking her into his mouth. Perfection. Carrick moved on to her other breast and after paying it the same attention, stood up and tunneled his fingers into her hair. “I want to take you to bed.”
Sadie reached up to hold his wrist with her hand. “I know.”
Carrick bent down to lean his forehead against hers. “That’s not a yes, Sadie.”
Sadie took his hand and led him down the hallway to her bedroom. Inside that china-blue and white space, she pushed her pants down her hips, taking her underwear with them. Stepping out of her socks, she stood before him, naked.
“Make love to me, Carrick. You make me feel so damn...”
Hot? Horny? Turned on?
“Alive,” Sadie whispered. “I so very badly need, right now, to feel alive.”
He could give that to her. And so he did.