Chapter 13
Skylar
I’ve askedto meet Alex for a drink, or just to talk. I need that desperately right now.
I also want to be with Adrian, because he makes me feel special. He makes me feel like I don’t have to be afraid of myself.
But I want to hear what Alex has to say.
I’ve had Adrian drop me off, even though he’d wanted to spend more time with me. After the fight, and the Holden issues, I just need some time alone.
When my door is shut firmly behind me I notice I am alone. That is good because I’m not in the mood for conversation right now. My cell vibrates and I see a text from Alex.
Alex: I’ll be there in ten.
Half an hour later and I am seated across form Alex at this small diner most of the college campus goes to.
“Tell me what happened, Skylar.”
I’ve briefly talked about it all in the car on the way over here: the fight, Holden showing up, and how everything just spiraled out of control.
I slowly pour a spoonful of sugar into my tea and watch as the granules sink to the bottom. I stare at it, mesmerized by something so unsubstantial.
“Skylar, talk to me.”
When I look at Alex, I see the concern and sympathy on his face. I hate that look. “I'm not avoiding anything, Alex.” The low tone of my voice and the way I drop my gaze again probably seem contrary to what I just said. When Alex places his hand on top of mine I lift my gaze again.
“You know you can talk to me. I'm here for you, always.”
“I know that, but—” The deep breath I take doesn't give the desired effect. I still feel all of my confusion inside of me. I stare my brother in the eyes, feeling guilt that I’ve never told him what happened all those years ago.
The almost rape. The fact I have kept it inside all these years.
“You guys look over the menu some?”A thin, very attractive woman stands in front of us, small paper pad in hand, pen poised.
“I’m starved, Sky.”
I smile.
“A large All The Way pizza, please.”
The waitress nods once and leaves us alone. I stare out the window, tracing the diner’s sign with my gaze.Before I can bring up Adrian, the waitress steps up to our table and sets the pizza and a few plates between us.
Have we been sitting in silence that long?
“Enjoy.” I don't miss how she gives an appreciative glance at Alex.
When the waitress finally decides to leave, Alex and I both grab a slice of pizza at the same time. We eat in silence and I am thankful. I don't want to think about anything aside from the way spices in the sauce explode in my mouth. The way the cheese melts off my slice and drips onto my plate.
“So, classes start Monday. You ready for all the chaos?” Alex grins around a mouthful of pizza. I am thankful for the distraction from my questions and thoughts.
I swallow my bite and take a long drink before answering. “Yes. No.” Alex chuckles and I can't help but smile. “I'm nervous, but I'm also excited.”
“Hey.” Alex places his hand on top of mine and leans forward. “This is exactly what you need, Sky. This is the next step in your life.”
I clear my throat and pull my hand out from under Alex’s. “I actually want to ask you something.” He leans back and one of his eyebrows raises in curiosity.
“Do I want to know?” The teasing note in his voice has me smiling.