“What the hell does your weight have to do with anything?” he asked. He was so damn annoyed. He’d never once thought about her weight. Shaun liked her curves. In fact, he loved them.
Everything was so fucked up between them. He didn’t even know where to start to make it right.
When he was away from her, he thought about exploring every single one of her curves. The moment they were together, this stillness came between them, and he couldn’t push it away, or stop it. It drove him crazy, and now he was seeing a whole other side of her, and he couldn’t stand it, not anymore.
“I’ve never cheated on you, Addie.”
She smiled. “Shaun, don’t worry about it.”
Getting to his feet, he closed the distance between them, and cupped her cheek. “I didn’t cheat on you.” He ran his thumb across her bottom lip. “Those women I went out with, I went out with them to help the company. They were part of helping the company to continue to grow and expand. I have never cheated on you, and I never will.” He pulled a little on her bottom lip.
“What are you doing?” she asked.
“Damned if I know. This has got to stop.”
“I don’t know what you mean.”
“We’re husband and wife. I took your virginity, Addie.”
She winced. “Sex for me isn’t exactly great, Shaun. You don’t have to make excuses.”
“I made it bad for you.”
“What?”
“I couldn’t contain myself. I’m the one with experience, and yet I was the one who behaved like a horny teenage boy. That’s not who I am.”
“I don’t want to talk about this.” She pulled out of his arms.
“Sex can be a million times better, that I can promise you.”
“You made it bad on purpose?”
Shaun sighed. “You never responded to me, Addie. I couldn’t get you to open up to me, and sex was just to give you a baby.”
He was so damned relieved that she couldn’t get pregnant. From the moment he saw that interview on television, his entire world had been opened up, and it was all his own fault. He’d believed her mother about everything, instead of going with his gut, which was telling him otherwise.
“I can’t hear this right now. Everything is moving fast.” She moved away from him, and he had no choice but to follow her through her apartment. He stopped when they passed the sitting room. There were pictures of her with Darla and Dean, and some with another woman. He saw a couple of celebrity chefs, and then there were a lot of pictures of her with her grandparents.
Chasing after her, he found her sitting on the edge of her bed.
His wife’s bedroom was neat, clean, and yet it had personal items that had all been missing from their museum. There was no way he was ever thinking of their place as a house again. It hadn’t been a house at all.
“What’s happening now with your book?” he asked.
“I’ve got a book signing on the day of release downtown in the bookstore. I’ve, erm, got a couple more interviews, and I think that’s it. I’ll be doing some more video uploads after they’ve been edited. I’ve got the cake to upload tomorrow.”
“Who does your editing?” he asked.
“Darla. She’s been a huge help with this. I wouldn’t have been able to do it without her. What do we do about us?”
He took a seat beside her on the bed.
Shaun wanted to reach out and touch her, but he held back.
She’s your damn wife, you idiot.
Taking hold of her hand, he locked their fingers together. “I think it’s time we went back to the start. There’s a lot we don’t know about each other, and the stuff we do know, is crap.”