Her legs widen, and she sits on my face. I grip her ass cheeks in each hand and spread them, trailing my tongue along her seam and circling around her tight hole before trailing back around to her clit.
Her hips rock in rhythm with my tongue as her loud, unrestrained moans fill the room. She reaches back and grips a fistful of my hair to hold me still as she fucks my face.
“That’s my girl,” I murmur against her skin. “Take what you need from me.”
Phoenix rides me until I think she’s ready to come, and then she surprises me by leaning forward and sucking my dick into her mouth. The feeling of her warm tongue wrapped around me while tasting her at the same time is absolute ecstasy.
But just as the pleasure mounts, she releases my dick with a pop. “I need you inside me, James.” She locks her eyes on mine. “And don’t be gentle.”
I roll on a condom as quick as I can and slam into her from behind. I grip her hair in my fist and shove her into the mattress as I drive into her over and over again. She cries out, calling formore, andharder, anddeeper. I give her everything I’ve got—everything she needs.
The more I think about the fact that no one has fucked her like this, that no other man has been able to give her the pleasure she deserves, the more of a Neanderthal I become with every thrust.
Mine.
Mine.
Mine.
I will do everything in my power to protect her, to never let her feel an ounce of pain ever again.
She’s mine, and I am hers.
Nothing will change that, and nothing will take her from me—whatever may come.
23
Phoenix
Daily Affirmation: “I belong here on this earth.”
“I owe you an apology.”
I sandwich the phone between my ear and my shoulder and switch Wilbur’s leash to my other hand. “No, Drew. You don’t owe me anything.”
“Just let me say this, okay?”
“Okay.”
He exhales a long breath. “I shouldn’t have told you that I wanted to be with you. I think I panicked when you started seeing James because for the past two years, it’s been me and you. We were both fucked up when we got to Clearview, and we were going to get out and take on the world together. Partners in crime. But then your life started to take shape while I’m stuck in here, and it felt like I was losing you. It made me think about what my life will be like when I get out of here, and I got scared. But I know there’s nothing romantic between us, and I’m sorry for making you think that I was hiding these feelings all this time. I just don’t want to lose you. As my friend, and nothing more.”
“Drew, you will never lose me. Ever. Whether I’m single or have a boyfriend, or even if I get married someday. We will always be friends. I will never abandon you.”
“I have one more confession to make.”
I arch a brow. “Oh?”
“I think I’m gay. Or bisexual. I don’t know. I’ve never let myself entertain that possibility because my parents would disown me.” He laughs. “But now that they already have disowned me, I guess I can be whoever I want to be.”
“You absolutely can be whoever you want to be, whether or not your parents approve.” I smile. “Thanks for sharing that with me.”
“Speaking of parents: Have you heard anything since James told off your mother?”
“Nope. And I don’t think I will.” I jog up the porch steps and twist my key in the door. “She’s just not capable of being what I need her to be.”
“Well, it’s her loss. I’m glad James was there to give her a piece of his mind, because I have a thing or two I’d like to say to her.”
I laugh. “It’s not worth it, honestly. I don’t want someone like her to be a part of my life. I’m letting it all go. I have my relationship with Tyler, and that’s all I care about.”