Yet I still couldn’t bring myself to talk about it. As soon as I uttered the words, it would become real, and when it became real, my heart would break.
It would be easier to fuck her than deal with my emotions right now.
I was planning to have sex with her for the first time tonight anyway. I needed it. I had waited to get to know her before I lost my virginity, but I was done waiting. I wanted her so badly. And if I broke up with her first, how long would it be until I got to do that?
I felt like an absolute selfish bitch for even thinking like that. She deserved to know first. I couldn’t use her to get my jollies and then ditch her.
But it really wasn’t like that. I wasn’t using her for sex. I just wanted to have our one good first time together before things fell apart…. and I was dreading them falling apart.
I didn’t have time to continue to think about how shitty of a person I was for doing this, because before I knew it, her lips were on my neck.
There was no way I could resist her now. She was always too damn sexy when she kissed on me like this. So it was decided.
I was going to lose my virginity to her right now.
And, knowing this was going to finally be our first time, she didn't waste a minute. She started pulling my shirt over my head as I unclasped my bra. The entire time, she was still sucking on my neck, periodically drifting down to my chest and then back up.
I did the same to her, ripping off her clothes as she continued to kiss me until we were both completely naked in front of each other. She was laid up on top of me, her breasts pushed against mine, which they never had been before. I’d only had her grasp my breasts with her hands… This was so much fucking sexier. Her nipples on my nipples had my eyes rolling in the back of my head.
My entire body felt so much more sensitive to sexual touch because the tension of knowing what was about to happen. We were about to pleasure each other both, at the same time, and it made me ravenous for her.
As good as her breasts felt on mine, I couldn’t wait. I had to taste her right now. I had to have her in me at the same time. And only position was going to make that work.
I rolled her over quickly, catching her off guard, but she went with it. My body was on top of hers now but I flipped over so that my head was at her pussy… and my pussy was at her head.
And we wasted no time.
After giving her oral a few times now, I knew exactly what she wanted. I knew that when I ran my finger nails up her thigh as I rolled my tongue around her clit, she trembled. I knew the motions that got her to scream. I had learned her and I was damn good at pleasing her.
But I had yet to enter her and she had yet to enter me. And because that’s what I wanted, I took the leap first. I slid a finger down from her clit to her entrance. I felt her, assessing how wet she was, and she was soaking. I knew that she was going to take my finger easily. Still, I slowly inserted it, giving her plenty of time to protest.
Of course, she didn’t protest. She moaned softly as my finger entered her. I began to bring it in and out of her as I continued to suck at her clit.
I could tell she loved it by the way it made her begin to go crazy on me. She was running her tongue faster than she ever had before. She put just the right amount of pressure on my clit, she had me moaning as my mouth was on her pussy.
And then I felt her move from my clit to my entrance. Not with her fingers, not yet, just with her tongue. I thought surely her tongue wasn’t long enough to actually be able to enter me this way.
But it was. I felt her move past my entrance until she was as deep in me as the length of her tongue would allow.
I screamed for a moment, overwhelmed with the feeling that she was finally inside me. It wasn’t as solid of a feeling as her fingers would’ve been. But I didn’t care. Finally, a piece of her was in me. A pretty fucking sexy piece, at that.
The feeling was so overwhelming it had distracted me temporarily from what I was doing, so as she tongue fucked me I got back into it, moving my fingers rhythmically in her as I licked at her.
She began to rub my clit as her tongue slid in and out and it was so intense having her pleasuring these two
places that I worried I was going to cum. And I didn't want to… not until I had more of her inside me.
i pulled my mouth from her pussy for only a moment. “Finger fuck me, baby,” I moaned.
She obliged, switching the positions of her tongue and her fingers. Iw as soaking wet for her so she didn’t have to ease into me at all. one second I was empty and the next, she had two fingers into me to the knuckle.
This time, the amazing pleasure of having her penetrate em did not distract me from what I was doing. I used it to motivate me as it had motivated her moments ago. I began to pick up the pace with my fingers and my mouth, going as fast as I could.
And she did the same, running her fingers back and forth inside me quickly, taking my virginity and making me love every second of it. It was more than I could take… More than either of us could take and soon we were cumming.
Both of us, at the same exact time. It was magical. As I was screaming from my orgasm, she was moaning from hers. As my body tensed up I could feel the muscles of her pussy tightening around my fingers. We were both in pure ecstasy at the exact same time.
I wanted to pause this moment and live in it forever.