EIRIK 15
“I can’t change the past,” I roar in frustration. Fuck, right now I would gladly do anything to make her happy. Did I make a mistake in thinking that Isabela could ever be my mate? Yes, because the feelings that are engraved in my soul for Siena are nothing like what I felt for Isabela.
I berate myself over the hope I gave Isabela—for the dream of a fairy-tale that in reality could never be and was false. I know that now. I tried to do the best I could. I tried to fight for that love, that nirvana that some of the other Elementals found—thinking that I had found it, not knowing any better. But deep down, I was still empty inside—still dark. I felt more at peace with the fact that I was loved, and that maybe somehow, I had found that eternal balm of happiness.
“Do you even want to?” Siena asks angrily as she sits up, glaring at me. “Someone that is supposed to be searching for his one true mate sure doesn’t care about that when he has a picture of another woman hanging in his room for years, Eirik. Years!”
I throw up my hands in anger as I snap around. “Fuck, Siena,” I roar in anger, taking in a deep breath as I try to calm myself before I turn around again.
“Isabela was good to me. She wasn’t my mate, but she treated me right.” I take in a deep breath. “She was my past and I feel bad that I could never give her the depth of commitment that I feel for you.” Taking a step closer, I point at her. “You, Siena, it’s fucking you I want. Not a past that wasn’t real.”
“But you had her painting and looked at it every day.”
“Yes, I hung it up, but after a while I didn’t even notice it.”
I won’t lie to Siena; she has a right to know the truth and hopefully after everything, we will forget about my marriage and carry on with our lives. “When I met Isabela, I was in a dark place. My parents had just died, and I couldn’t see any goodness around me. That is, until I met her. Isabela was a carefree creature that did everything to make everyone around her happy. I had never met someone that was so pure at heart, so willing to do anything for others.”
“Isn’t that nice,” Siena says sarcastically as she stands.
“No, it’s not nice,” I snap as I grab her arm. “What I’m trying to say is that I loved her for the carefree love she gave me. For saving me from darkness. At that point in time, I thought, what the hell? She made me feel normal, so why not give her a better life? All she wanted was to have a family, and I was lost at the time. I wanted to love her—wanted to give her what she wanted and hated the fact that I was an Elemental and no matter how much I tried I just couldn’t.” Siena tries to pull away from me, but I tighten my hold. “I never felt for her like I feel for you. I never wanted her as much as I want you and I have never been as fucking obsessed with anyone like I am with you.”
“I have the feeling that you are always comparing the two of us, that I don’t compare to her.” I can hear the pain in Siena’s voice—the anger of her doubts, and I hate that I have been the cause of it. I know how possessive Elementals can be. If it was me, I would have been losing my shit thinking about Siena having feelings for someone else besides me. Just the thought has my anger rising at a faceless man.
Drawing Siena towards me, I cup her face with my hands, her eyes lifting to mine, and I can see the uncertainty in them.
“I know it was a long time ago, and I know that it’s silly of me to be thinking like this, but you still had her painting.”
“Siena, trust me when I say that there is no comparison. I realized the moment I met you, that this between us is completely different from what I could ever have had with any other woman. I didn’t want it to be true because she was good to me. I wanted to be able to give her what she wanted, but now that I know what having a mate is like I know that no matter how much I tried, I would never have had the connection with her like I have with you.” Moving back a tendril of hair that has slipped over her eyes, I lean down and kiss her lips gently. “If I had to lose you, I know that I would lose my shit and there is nothing or no one that could do anything to stop it, you have become a part of me, my every hour is surrounded with thoughts of you.”
I cannot have my woman thinking that I want someone else, even if that someone is dead. “Siena, you are the one I want. You are the only one on my mind and the only one that has ever made me feel the way I do.”
A tear slips down her cheek, professing all the hurt that she was feeling. I kiss her again, this time more passionately.
Siena’s arms slip around my neck, pulling me closer. My woman has a way about her that makes me feel like I’m the only man in the world. She touches me with a tenderness that humbles me. Her emotions are as clear as day on her face for all to see. I deepen the kiss, taking us on a journey of desire as I lower my arms, grabbing her ass and pulling her up as her legs slide around my waist.
“You, only you,” I state before taking both of us on a long exploration of our carnal passions. Siena drives me crazy with lust as she scrapes her nails lightly up my neck, through my hair, never once breaking the kiss. If it takes the rest of our lives, I will make sure that Siena feels the passion that she has awakened in me. She will know that being the mate of an elemental is unique.
Walking towards the bed, I lay her down before me. Sliding my hands under my T-shirt that she’s wearing, I pull it up and over her head. Next, I unhook her bra, pulling it off to display her perky breasts for my view. “Take your panties off,” I order as I stand back to pull off my jeans, my eyes following her movements.
I am as hard as Thor’s hammer, my cock weeping with excitement. When I saw her at the pool, her body on display for the others to see, I saw red. I swear if any of them were unmated, I would have gouged their eyes out but knowing that the others had their women there and were too busy looking at their own women to worry about mine helped.
“Tease,” I grunt, as she moves her hands slowly up her legs after disposing of her panties. She runs her fingers up her inner thigh, over her mound, up her flat belly, and stops at her breasts that she fondles as her eyes hold mine. Her fingers tweak the hard nipples, and has my mouth watering at the thought of her taste in my mouth.
Grabbing her ankles, I slide them around my waist as I open her legs and step between them. My hands run up the outside of her legs, over her calves, knees, and thighs. I lean down, my hardened cock sliding over her glistening folds as I take one of her nipples between my lips. My hips moving, thrusting, teasing as I don’t penetrate, and instead tease both of us as we rub our bodies against each other. Siena’s nails scrape over my back in excitement.
Sucking deeply, I hear her gasp, lifting slightly as I draw her nipple in with my teeth, nibbling at its tenderness as I build an inferno of lust within Siena that has her lifting her chest against my face. My hips rub harder against her sensitive body, creating gasps of pleasure from her and driving my cock to a frantic excitement that has me blind with lust.
My woman is a passionate goddess that can drive the cum from my body in an explosive eagerness that I have never encountered before. I know that if I don’t take her soon, I am going to explode like an inexperienced teenager.
Rearing back, I look down at Siena. “You drive me fucking crazy.” I grunt just before I join our bodies in a torrent explosion of the senses.
“Ei…” Siena starts to say just before I pull partially out and then thrust in hard, stopping only to hear her gasp. Her eyes glaze over with passion. Their slumberous look inciting my drive to bring her to an earth-shattering explosion of the senses.
I need to hold back. I don’t want to hurt her as my thrusts become harder, and her gasps louder as my grunts get deeper. Fuck, nothing can ever be as good as this. I can feel her body start to tremble, her hands grab at my wrists, her nails digging into my flesh as her torso rises and she screams. Her muscles stiffen around me, drawing a deep growl from deep within me as I let go and jet streams of my essence empty inside of her.
Siena can bring life to the dead with her passionate gasps. My heart is racing, and my body is completely drained. My woman is a sex machine, driving me faster to reach the finish line. Leaning down, I take her lips in a deep, gentle kiss. Everything about her fills me with…
There is a bang on the door interrupting my thoughts and this moment. “What?” I snap in anger at the interruption.