Chapter 11
MONIQUE
I woke to the feel of a hot body behind me, and a cooler body sliding back into bed with us.
What the hell is going on?
My eyes opened in panic, my heart pumping madly in my chest. Why was I lying naked between two men?
Oh, my God!
Memories rushed back in, and heat diffused my cheeks.
I pulled the blankets tighter to my chest and rolled slightly, looking from side to side. From Xander to Kyle, and back again.
“Uh... hi?”
“Hey, you’re awake.” Xander slid closer and reached for me with his big, warm, man hands.
I felt totally embarrassed now that the moments of intimacy and heat were behind us. Xander had kissed me... downthere! And Kyle had sucked my breasts so deeply into his mouth it was as if he were swallowing me whole.
I’d been so rapt in the guys before, I’d barely been able to think straight, but now... It felt so awkward I couldn’t bear to lie there a moment longer.
I used my magic to transport myself across the room and out of their reach. I dressed magically as well. I needed to be covered up, fast.
“What’s wrong?” Kyle asked, sitting up and stretching his arms above his head. He groaned in a loud and satisfied manner, as though he’d just woken from the longest and deepest sleep.
“I... need the bathroom.” I sounded pathetic, but that was the best excuse I could come up with.
I rushed out of the room, leaving the two large, gorgeous men in my bed, both blinking in obvious confusion.
What the hell was wrong with me? Letting them talk me into such a seduction? But wow, it had been good! I’d never known physical sensations like that before.
I visited the bathroom to give truth to my words and stayed in there way too long. Everything in my body ached a little, in a totally foreign way.
My cheeks blazed with heat as I allowed the memories to surface properly, wave after wave of images assailing me.
I’d allowed myself to be stripped naked, and then pleasured!
Xander had put his head between my legs and done all sorts of wickedly delicious things to me. I seriously couldn’t believe I had allowed him to do that.
I pressed my hands against my cheeks and stifled the squeal that rose in my throat. I couldn’t do this. Not with two men. I couldn’t. This was insane!
Xander and Kyle were older, more mature. They needed someone who could handle this sort of intimacy with aplomb. I was ready to have a nervous breakdown, and we hadn’t even had actual sexual intercourse. How could I have allowed them to do all those things to me? I’d only just met them the day before!
I shivered uncontrollably, then forced myself to calm down. I even put a warming spell over my body just to make the shivers go away. Then I washed my hands, teasing out the minutes.
I needed an excuse for why I didn’t want them in bed with me tonight, because, surely, they’d want to sleep next to me again?
But I couldn’t. I just couldn’t do that. I needed some time and space to think. I didn’t want to just throw my virginity at them, because I was pretty sure removing that was the next logical step in this relationship.
Though they seemed totally fine with the whole ‘fated to be together’ concept, we’d only known each other thirty-six hours and I was not comfortable with the idea of giving up my virginity at all.
They were just too much. Either of them alone, or both together. It didn’t matter. Their presence was all-consuming. I wouldn’t be able to work out how I was feeling with them in bed beside me, all big and beautiful. And powerful. And so, so sexy...
My body ached, as if to give lie to my anxiety. I shivered at the memories that buffeted my system. The memories were intense, and amazing, and out of an erotic dream with how perfect they were. Perhaps Iwasdreaming? This couldn’t be real, could it?
I’d been alone for so many years, maybe I’d created these two perfect, sexy heroes, just for me. My magic couldn’t go off without me knowing about it and manifest in this way, could it?