Shit. The second he said that, it was out there. Like something big had just escaped, something big and dangerous, and it could not be recaptured. And he was right.
It scared the shit out of me. Four amazing, sexy as shit guys falling for me?
Scary, yeah. But it also sent a thrill through me that made my knees weak. The possibilities were…
Wait a minute. Choosing one would hurt the remaining three. I couldn’t do it.
Out of the question.
I’d go back to my old life, just keeping my head above water.
No more cute guys. No more hot sex.
Linc continued, “It’s funny, because the four of us are all pretty different. In most cases, we’d probably want different types of women. But it seems like you are our type.”
Ugh. Why did he have to make this so hard?
He cupped my face with his hands. “So we all agreed that I’d talk to you.”
“How’d they choose you?” I asked.
“They thought I’d be the calmest and coolest.”
They had a point.
He took my hand and led me over to a booth, where he slid in next to me. He pulled me to him.
“We’re all cool with you choosing one. You are more important to us than anything. There will be no jealousy, no resentment. And we’ll always love you.”
I shook my head. “I can’t choose.”
“You have to.”
The gravity of what he was saying washed over me. It was so goddamn zero-sum. And so goddamn unfair. The naughty thrill of multiple lovers was coming to a screeching halt, just as I’d known it eventually would.
I just didn’t know it would hurt so much.
He slid out of the booth and stood.
“You have to open the bar, and I have to get back to the gym. Meet us at the mansion tonight. We’ll all be there, and we’ll help you figure this thing out.”
I watched him leave the Drive By, the sunlight flashed through the open door, and then disappeared, leaving me sitting in the dim bar alone.
* * *
“Matty,” I said over my cell during the drive back to the mansion. “You busy?”
“Hey, sweetie. No, I’m not busy. I’m never busy. I don’t believe in working hard. Actually, I don’t believe in working at all, if one can help it.”
It was true. He didn’t.
“So, how are things with the guys? I’m still green with envy that you’ve got a fivesome going on.”
“Well, it was awesome while it lasted.”
He gasped. “What do you mean?”
“It’s coming to a close, is what I mean. It’s gone too far. And I can’t play with people’s lives like this.”