The sun shone on his dark hair, creating a crown, and he was so handsome, sitting there like he owned the place.
We were just faking it. Nothing more to it. Maybe he should get a small army of girls to bang just so I wouldn’t think about him like this.
“What?” he asked.
And my cheeks turned red. “Nothing.”
“You’re staring at me.”
“Just imagining what horrible outfit I could demand you wear at our fake wedding if we have to fake it long enough to start planning.”
“If we go that far, you’ll have to wear white,” he answered. “Can you handle that?”
“No. We’ll have a goth wedding. I’ll wear all black.”
He laughed and cocked his head to the side, staring at me just as intently. “You’ve got the cutest smiles, you know?”
I scoffed and turned away. “Please, don’t flatter yourself. I only scowl around you.”
Sean pointed at the tree ahead of us with a tiny red light to give away the camera. “I have video evidence.”
Damn it. “Thanks for the sausage. I’m going to take a nap now.”
He chuckled as I climbed into the tent because, of course, he thought it was funny.
I plopped down on the sleeping mat and stared at the fabric over my head. Thanks for the sausage. What the hell was wrong with me?
Who was I kidding? Everything was wrong with me. I have psychoanalyzed myself to death and back over the years.
Sean was my type because he looked rough with his busted-up nose and giant muscles. He scared me for all the same reasons, and I wanted to be scared. I wanted to be punished.
And then nothing would come of it. I knew that part well enough. I’d just make a fool of myself if I tried to make a move and then freak out while trying to have sex with him. Why couldn’t I just be normal?
I shut my eyes, forcing myself to go to sleep, but all I could see behind my closed lids was Sean sitting outside like a sentinel. Maybe that was also why I was here, thinking how it would feel to have his hard body against mine. He could hurt me. He could protect me.
Yeah. That was it. He was guarding me. Nothing could hurt me now. That’s what I needed to think about instead of all the other nonsense. Maybe then I could fall asleep.