Heidi
He’s in my space, in my face. Treks breath dances over my flesh as he stares into my eyes. I can see the storm brewing in his eyes, the one daring me to say no. I shouldn’t feel these things, shouldn’t want him the way I do, but there’s no denying it. Being here with him every single day has changed something in me. He makes me feel.
“Trek, I …”
“Don’t you dare, Heidi. Don’t you dare lie to me.” How could I lie to him after everything he’s done for me? I can’t.
“I can’t say I don’t feel something,” I admit to him.
“Then what the hell is with you?”
“I’m scared, okay? I’m scared of all of this. Of what I feel. Of who I am. I’m fucking scared, Trek!” There it is. He finally got it out of me, and now there’s no turning back.
“You have no reason to be scared.”
“You said I was yours. I haven’t been in a relationship for a very long time, Trek.”
“I know that, and I’m not sayin’ we’re gettin’ married, Heidi. Fuck.”
“Then what are we?” I ask, not sure I understand what he’s talking about. I’m confused, upset, and unsure of everything that’s happening.
“You’re mine, Heidi. Just like I said you were. You need time, you got it, but don’t think you’re fuckin’ or even lookin’ at any of the other guys here,” he warns, causing my heart to kick up a notch.
“Is that what you think about me?”
“No. I don’t think that. I’m just lettin’ you know the deal,” Trek retorts.
“The deal? When did I agree to this deal?” I ask him in return.
“When you said you felt somethin’ for me. That pretty much sealed the deal, Heidi.”
“You can’t do this to me.”
“You don’t want me?” Trek asks once more. I can see the anger in his beautiful eyes. I see how he looks at me, and I know he’s serious.
“I didn’t say that.”
“Then what the hell, Heidi? You either want me, or you don’t.”
“Why are you being like this?”
“Like what?”
“So … alpha! I don’t know. It’s like a switch flipped from the nice guy to this,” I explain, raising my hand up and down to make my point.
“The difference is you weren’t mine before. I can be the nice guy. I still am, but when you became mine, you’re right, a flip switched, and now you’re gonna know what it feels like to be mine.” Just as he finishes speaking, Griz walks over, his eyes moving over me. It isn’t the first time he’s looked at me like this, but I didn’t tell Trek that.
“What the fuck? If you were smart, you’d keep your fuckin’ eyes off my girl before I carve them out of your head,” Trek growls. Griz chuckles before slapping a hand on his shoulder.
“I didn’t know she was off-limits, brother.”
“She is. Take your fuckin’ eyes off her,” he snarls, pulling me into his side. I can’t say that I don’t like this new side of Trek because I like the way he’s protective of me. I’ve never had a man be this way.
“Damn, Trek. Calm down. I was only lookin’.”
“And now you’re not.” The growl that leaves his throat causes heat to pool between my legs. I didn’t think I’d find that as sexy as I do. Griz laughs once more before turning and walking away. I giggle a little when Trek looks down at me.
“What the fuck is funny?”
“The way you’re acting.”
“I told you there’s a difference when you belong to me. No one is lookin’ at your body but me,” Trek states.
“What are you going to do? Growl at everyone?”
“I didn’t growl.”
“You totally growled at him.”
“He deserved whatever he got. He didn’t need to be lookin’.”
“You’re insane.”
“Hey, Trek. Come over here a minute.” We both turn when we hear Demon calling out to him. He doesn’t let go of me as he walks us over to the man. I almost laugh again at the way he’s acting, but I know I shouldn’t.
“What’s up?”
“Peggy is goin’ home too,” Demon replies.
“Which one is that?” He asks. I point her out before Demon has the chance to speak.
“Is that all of them?”
“All except Raven. She said she isn’t ready.”
“Damn, that’s good, Prez.”
“Yeah, it is. Thought you’d want to know. Also, we got a hit on that other house. We’re settin’ up a team to go check it out. You want in?” I tense next to him, and I know he can feel it. His arm tightens around me.
“Yeah, I want in.”
“Good. I figured you would. We’re gonna head out tonight and see what we can find,” he says.
“Are you sure this is a good idea?” I ask. Demon smiles at me and nods his head.
“This is what we do, darlin’. We go after the bad guys.”
“I get that, but it’s dangerous.”
“We’re dangerous,” Rage adds as he steps up next to us.
“We got this handled, darlin’. You won’t be in any danger, I promise.” I nod my head, although something inside of me says otherwise. I feel safe with Trek, but I don’t know about all this.
“We head out in an hour. You good?” Demon asks Trek.
“Yeah. I’ll be ready,” he tells him. Demon nods and walks away as Rage looks between us.
“Somethin’ I should know?” he asks.
“Yeah, keep your cock away from my girl,” Trek tells him. My cheeks heat as Rage looks between us once more.
“I like it, Trek. About time you settled down.” Trek smirks but doesn’t respond. He turns and grabs my hand pulling me down the hallway toward the bedrooms. Once we’re inside his room, Trek starts to strip out of his clothes. I can’t help but watch the man. He’s too fucking perfect not to watch. He turns his head and looks at me over his shoulder before grinning at me.
“You like lookin’?” he asks.
“You know I do,” I tell him.
“You wanna touch me, Heidi?” Treks voice is husky. I nod my head, and he turns to face me fully. His chest is bare, colorful tattoos dancing over his skin. I walk toward him, raising my hand and letting my fingers run over his hard body.
“I could fuck you right here and now. Up against the wall,” he says. I don’t answer him. I swallow hard and keep my fingers moving when I see him shudder. It makes me feel worthy. Better about myself that I can make him react to me like this. It’s been a long time since I’ve touched a man freely. Trek doesn’t move either. He just lets me touch him, running my fingers over every inch of him.
“I need to get ready to go,” he finally says. I start to pull my hand away when his hand shoots up and grabs it, keeping it in place.
“When I get back, I want your tongue all over my body. I want you to touch me the way you are now,” he tells me. Fuck, the way he’s talking to me, I’d give the man just about anything he wanted.