Trek
She did well at my mom’s, and I understand not wanting to see hers yet. She wasn’t ready for that. Judging by how she nearly had a panic attack out the front, she isn’t going to be for a while. I won’t force her. I wouldn’t do that. I know this is hard on her, and I want to give her time.
It’s been another week of Heidi keeping her distance. A week we’ve been staking out the house too. I’m on edge. We all are. Everyone wants to end this shit, and we want to end it now. I know it isn’t just that house. There’s more like it out there, but we’ll handle what’s close to home for now.
“You think showin’ her the pictures might help?” Griz asks as he slides the photos across the table to me.
“I don’t know, brother. I don’t know if that’s gonna fuck her up even more.”
“We need to know who they are,” he reminds me. I know we do. I know what needs to be done, but at what cost to Heidi? What kind of trauma is she facing?
“How do we go about it? Just ask her to look at them?” Demon asks.
“I guess that’s the best way.”
“Want me to call her in here?” Drake asks. He doesn’t look at Demon, though. He looks at me for the answer. I nod my head and pull a chair up next to me as he heads for the door. Drake hollers at her, and she comes walking in after a minute. She looks scared, nervous but she knows no one here would hurt her. I motion for her to come and sit next to me, smiling when she does.
“We need to show you some pictures and see if you recognize any of them,” Demon announces, nodding toward the photos sitting in front of me.
“Okay,” she murmurs. I grab the photos and pass them to her. She looks through them, putting them into two piles except for one.
“Those are just guys that … that …”
“Pay for girls?” I ask, filling in the blanks for her.
“Yeah.”
“And the other’s?”
“Those are Victor’s men. They’re in charge of the girls and all the money. Victor is this one,” She pulls one from the pile. “Is the main one I know of.”
“And this guy?” I ask about the random photo she left by itself.
“I don’t know who that is. I’ve never seen him,” she answers.
“Do you have names for the other guys?” Demon asks. Heidi shakes her head.
“I don’t remember ever hearing a name. They just … dealt with us,” she whispers as if she doesn’t want to say the words out loud. I reach over and squeeze her shoulder.
“You’re doin’ good.” She gives me a sad smile and nods her head.
“Victor was mainly in charge of everything I know of. He would come in after and untie me,” she explains, causing my chest to clench. What she had to endure. What she had to go through makes me sick. I wish there were more I could do to help her. To help her over this.
“Fuck,” I mumble under my breath. Heidi turns her head to look at me, and I can see the look in her eyes. She needs me right now, needs me to numb what she’s feeling. And fuck me do I want to give it to her. I wait, though. I wait for Demon to end this meeting, praying that it comes soon.
“Okay. You did good, sweetheart. We may have more for you later,” he tells her.
“Okay.” With that said, he excuses himself, and everyone else stands to leave except for us.
“I need you,” she whispers.
“I know you do.” I wait for Griz to leave the room before walking over and locking the door. I move over to the couch and pull my jeans and boxers down as I look at her. My cock is already hard from just looking at her. I can’t control what I feel, and I don’t know if I want to either.
Heidi pulls her jeans and panties off and kicks them to the side before stripping out of her shirt and bra. Standing there naked in front of me, baring all her scars, she looks so goddamn beautiful. I motion for her to come to me, and slowly she walks over and straddles my lap. I reach for my jeans and grab a condom before passing it to her. I watch her in amazement as Heidi rips it open and rolls it down my length before lowering herself. I groan, loving the way she feels wrapped around me.
“Fuck, Heidi.”
“Do you hate me?” she asks as she raises her hips and slowly falls back down.
“Not even a little.” The growl that leaves my throat should tell her enough. Her hands come to rest on my shoulders as she fucks me as if her life depends on it. She rides me hard, harder than she has in the past, and I love every sick second of it. This is for her. I know it’s for her, but the tingle that runs along my spine is something more. It’s everything. She makes me feel alive, and I don’t know how the hell she does it. Heidi makes me feel complete, and I don’t know how to explain that.
I want to grab her and fuck her harder, but I know I can’t, not yet anyway. She isn’t ready to give in to me. Is that what I want? For her to give into me? Her letting me take control and fucking her the way I want? Without thinking about it, my hands grab onto her hips, pushing her down harder on my dick. She doesn’t stop me, but I know I’ve gone far enough. I can’t take over any more than I already have. So I keep my fingers digging into her hips while she continues to roll her hips and fuck me. Sweat drips down her temples, and I want nothing more than to lean in and lick each salty drop. I want to taste her, own her. What the hell is wrong with me? Am I falling for this girl?
“Oh god, Trek,” she cries out as my fingers bruise her hips. I can feel her clench around me right before she loses all control and comes hard. My cock jerks, loving the feeling of her pulsating around me. I come after her, lifting my hips to get as much of her as I can. Then her head drops to my shoulder, and her warm breath tickles my skin.
“That was amazing,” she whispers.
“I’m sorry. I couldn’t stop myself,” I tell her.
“It didn’t bother me the way I thought it would. I liked it,” Heidi admits. Thank fuck for that because her hips will be bruised later, and I won’t say sorry for that either.
“Good because I couldn’t hold back.”
“I think next time I might let you have a little more control,” she says softly. I wrap my hand with her hair and tug at it, so she has to look at me.
“Are you sure?”
“I need to let this go, Trek.”
“You’re doin’ great, Heidi.”
“But not good enough. I know you wouldn’t hurt me.” And she’s right. I wouldn’t hurt her. Not in the way she’s thinking.
“Oh, I’m gonna hurt you, darlin’, just not how you think I will.” A small smile tugs across her face as she looks at me and licks her lips.
“I might like that.”
“I bet you do. We’ll go slow. I promise you that much.” Heidi nods before leaning in and kissing me. She tastes like perfection. I lose myself in her, and I can’t figure out why.