Immediately she goes stiff and straightens her back. “Okay,” she whispers.
“It’s not about us. Nothing has changed with us,” I say, pressing my lips against hers. She relaxes a bit, but still has her guard up. “I know you don’t like the club, but you also know I’ll never walk away. For us to make this work, I think being honest about what’s going on with the club will hopefully stop your questioning and worry.
She relaxes completely and rests her hand on top of mine. “I think that’s a great idea,” she says, smiling.
I tell her everything from the deal that didn’t go through to the fight because of Riley to the plan we now have in place. The more I talk the more she backs away from me. Her eyes are now wide, her mouth is slightly parted, and her brown eyes are full of questions and sadness. She rests her hand on her stomach as she listens to me and it gives me the confidence, I need for whatever happens now. My obligation is to keep her and the baby safe and I’ll do whatever the fuck is necessary to do that.
She stands up and begins pacing in front of me, keeping her eyes focused on the horrible carpet. “So, your life is in danger and you are just hoping this plan of killing them works?”
I sigh and run my hand through my hair. “You need to trust me,” I say.
She stops pacing and lifts her head to see me. Her now angry eyes lock on mine and I fist my hands beside me. “This isn’t about trust, Kace. This is about you putting your life in danger to protect everyone but yourself. This is about more death. This is about me having to face my fear head on of losing you before I even fucking have you,” she says as tears run down her
face.
I jump up and wrap my arms around her, kissing the top of her head. “You aren’t losing me, and you have me, sweetheart.” I squeeze her a little tighter and sink my fingers into her long brown hair. “Please try to accept the club,” I whisper.
Her hands are fisted in my shirt as she quietly cries against my chest. “I promise I’ll try,” she says as her voice cracks.
“I want us to work on this, become a family, but that means taking the good and bad with the club because they are my family,” I say, rubbing her back.
She pulls back slightly so she can search my eyes. I have no idea what the fuck she’s looking for, but I’ll give her whatever it is. “It scares me, Kace. I’m not going to lie. I’m having a hard time knowing you are capable of killing someone. If they don’t kill you, you could end up in jail for murder. Do you understand that? That we are having a baby and he needs both of his parents here. I came back to make sure that’s what he gets and it’s fucking scary thinking I will have to tell him the few stories I have of his father,” she says, full on crying now.
“Sweetheart, I told you to trust me. I’m not a stupid man. I would never step into anything unless I was a hundred percent sure it was the right thing. With the Raging Devils if we don’t kill them first, they will kill all of us. This is about protecting ourselves and everyone we love. It’s about keeping our neighborhood safe and drug free.” I move my hand down to rest on her stomach. “I will do anything I need to do to make sure the world is a safe place for him. Everything the club and I do is for a better future for all of us.”
She nods her head and pulls away from me, wiping her eyes. “Can we sleep here, or do we have to go to Souls tonight?”
“We’re staying here tonight. Tomorrow we will pack and head to Souls,” I reply.
She shakes her head as she walks past me. “I’m exhausted and I’m already packed so I’m gonna get some sleep,” she whispers.
She’s pissed and upset, I get that, but she’s still willing to come with me. It gives me hope that I did the right thing telling her what was going on. We need to take care of the Raging Devils so I can get back to focusing on starting my family. I smile at the thought. Family.
Chapter 10
Ivy
I’ve been in bed for over an hour now and my mind won’t shut off. I knew there was something going on with the club but hearing it all scares the shit out of me. The fact that it’s not just the club in danger but Kace is facing the retaliation of what he did to that guy Damon proves my fears are valid. I’ve been giving it a lot of thought the last few days and I know that if I want this to work with him, I need to accept the club. He’s already said it to me. The difficult part is accepting the death that comes with it. It’s easier said than done. I need to talk to Harper and ask her how she handles it all. I need to know how to separate the man that is holding me close right now and the man that has no problem killing someone.
“Sweetheart, stop overthinking everything,” he whispers, pressing a soft kiss below my ear.
“I’m not,” I lie.
He rolls me onto my back and climbs on top of me. His brown eyes are soft as they search mine, looking for the lie I just told. “You’re lying.”
I don’t say anything. I just grin and enjoy the feeling of his muscular bicep beneath my hands. A tear escapes my eye as I think this could be the last time I feel him on top of me.
He reaches up and covers my mouth with his hand. My eyes widen and he leans down kissing my nose. “Relax, take a deep breath in through your nose. Stop overthinking.” He presses his hard cock against me and my eyes flutter closed for a second. “Let go of all the feelings that are suffocating you and let me take control,” he whispers.
He presses his hand harder against my mouth and I feel like I can’t breathe until he reminds me to take deep breaths through my nose. I keep my focus on that and once I relax, he uses his other hand to reach down and pull my panties off. He came to bed naked and I pulled my sleep shirt off a while ago, so we are now both naked. The feeling of his warm, solid, strong body on top of me gives me a sense of security.
He begins teasing my entrance with his rigid dick. My hips move trying to get him inside me where I am suddenly burning with need. “I’m going to fuck you, Ivy. I want you to stop thinking, stop worrying, stop trying to make sense of things. I want your only thought to be of my cock inside your tight pussy. Each thrust bringing you closer to falling over the edge and once you do, let it all go with your orgasm.”
He rubs his dick along my wet pussy, and I moan against his hand. My eyes lock with his and because I’m not able to speak, I simply nod. My body is on fire and he is the only one who can put out the flames. He reaches down between us and rubs my clit causing my back to arch. “God, you are so fucking sexy, sweetheart. Feeling you beneath me, seeing how my simple touch affects you is so hot,” he says, his voice thick with want. In one quick move he slams his thick cock into me, and I scream against his hand. “Let it all go, Ivy. Give it all to me.”
He slowly begins moving, allowing me to adjust to him, but after a few strokes he begins moving fast and hard. My hands find their way to his solid back and my nails sink in. He lets out a primal growl that has my nipples hardening further and my pussy getting wetter. As he pounds into me, he puts even more pressure on the hand he’s got covering my mouth, forcing me to breathe through my nose. It’s erotic and exciting. My hips match his rhythm and we are both moaning with pleasure.
“Look at me,” he demands. His deep, sexy voice wrapping around me. I don’t need to be told twice, I open my eyes and find his brown eyes darker than normal as they collide with mine. “Concentrate on the feeling of my dick buried deep inside you, of my piercing dragging against you, hitting you in all the right places. On our bodies pressed against each other. Your hard nipples rubbing against my bare chest each time I slam into you. Give yourself over to me completely, Ivy,” he groans out.