Chapter 19: Jessica
The last week since Ajax and I had cleared the air had been perfect. He made love to me every day, more than once a day. I couldn’t get enough of him like he appeared not to be able to get enough of me. He constantly talked about how sexy my pregnant body was, and I had to believe him with how he acted.
In addition, we’d taken our lovemaking in new directions. He’d started to introduce me to new things. I’d almost lost it the night he spanked me for the first time, and I found it made me hotter for him. Another night, he had me ride him as we watched a sexy porno together.
But the best so far had been the forays into introducing me to anal sex. I hadn’t lied when I told him I’d been curious about it and had wanted to know what it felt like. He started out easy. At first, it was getting me used to his fingers in my ass. Then he brought a small dildo out one night and used it on me. When he’d used it on my ass with him in my pussy, I’d almost died at the pleasure.
Then two nights ago, he’d shown me a butt plug. It was wider than his fingers or the dildo. He’d worked it into my ass and after getting past the pain, I’d been driven to distraction. When we were done, he’d cleaned me and the plug before reinserting it for a few hours. He said it was to get me used to something bigger, so I could more easily take his cock.
The idea of having his cock in my ass was making me crazy. I just knew everything we’d done so far wouldn’t compare to that, though I was a bit nervous. What if it turned out to be too much? I needed to talk to someone. And while it made me embarrassed to ask, I knew Madisen would be the one to ask. I didn’t know if her and Rebel had that kind of sex or not, but I needed to talk to another woman.
Today, I was at her house. She was resting and trying to wish the next three weeks until her due date away. We were in the living room, talking and having a glass of tea. We’d just finished lunch. Deciding now was as good of a time as any to ask her, I cleared my throat. She gave me a questioning look. I felt a blush stain my cheeks and I looked down.
“Madisen, I need to talk to you about something. I need another woman’s opinion.”
“Sure, what about, Jess?”
“Well, it’s kind of personal and I’m not even sure if you know anything about it, but I’m not comfortable enough to ask anyone else,” I hedged.
“Spit it out, Jess. What do you want to know?”
“How much does full-on anal sex hurt? I mean not using toys or fingers, but actually having, you know, that in your ass?” I asked her in a rush. I looked up to find her silently laughing. I stood up. I had to get the hell out of here.
“No! No, sit down, Jess. I’m not laughing at you. I’m laughing at how embarrassed it made you to ask. Now, I can tell you that I have had it with Rebel, in all forms. If you’ve tried fingers and toys, then you know it’s painful yet very pleasurable. Having him put his cock in your ass, it hurts more, but the pleasure factor goes up a hundred times more too. Or at least it does for me. I can’t really describe the difference in the sensation other than it’s a deeper release and feels like he’s in both places at once.”
I gave her a smile. “We’ve done things with his fingers and then toys. I want to have him do the other, and I know he does too. I’m just nervous that I won’t be able to handle the pain or won’t like it the same as the other.”
“It could be less pleasurable, but I doubt it. Not if you like the other stuff he does back there. And he’ll follow your response and at your pace. Just make sure to use enough lubrication and take it as slow as you need in order to adjust. I guessed that you’ve not been with anyone but him, right?”
“Yeah, he’s the only one. I had two boyfriends in the past, but we never went there.” She gave me a curious look. I decided to fill her in on my past boyfriend issues. When I was done, she was livid.
“Jesus, someone needs to kill those two bitches twice over for that shit. I thought it was crap, them taking you and trying to get your money before they killed you, but to have done that and said all those things. No wonder you couldn’t believe guys found you beautiful!”
“Ajax tells me all the time I’m beautiful and sexy. I’m learning to believe him. It’s just hard after so many years of hearing how ugly and unwanted you are.”
“Damn. Speaking of those two, has he said anything else about if they’ve found them and those two assholes who helped kidnap you in Colorado? I hate the idea of them still being on the loose out there.”
“He hasn’t other than to say they have feelers out trying to track them down. He hasn’t said what they’ll do when they find them.” She gave me a stern look.
“Jess, you know what they’re going to do. They’re going to make sure they can never hurt you or anyone else again. The guys are for the most part, law-abiding citizens. When it comes to things like this, they don’t leave it to the law to extract justice. They do it themselves.”
I knew she was right. I mean, I’d guessed what they had done to her stepdad and those guys from the enemy MCs who had been after her.
“I just see how caring they can be, and it’s hard to think they’re that way.”
“They are caring. But you have to know and be able to live with the other side of them. Some of the guys were in the military. They have seen and done some hard shit. It has molded them. I wouldn’t trade them for the world.”
“I wouldn’t either. The best thing to ever happen to me is coming here and finding you and them,” I told her. She held out her arms. I got up and gave her a hug. We laughed and then got back to less serious talking.
Later, I left her to take a nap. I decided I needed to take a short walk around the compound before I went home to start dinner. Ajax had told me not to walk alone, but I was feeling fine. He worried that I’d have another incident with my blood sugar dropping. However, with me eating regularly and watching what I ate, I’d been doing great. Zara had brought me a glucometer and showed me how to check my sugars. I did it once a day unless I felt funny. Ajax had insisted she show him how to do it as well.
For the first of March, it was brisk but not overly cold. When the sun went down, I knew it would be different. I walked back toward where the lake was on the compound. When I got there, I sat down to rest. I was going to start working out after the baby came. The guys were in the gym almost every day. The club had one in the clubhouse.
The rippling of the lake started to hypnotize me. I laid back on the ground, and my eyes grew heavy. As the wind blew through the bare trees rattling the branches, I closed my eyes. It was so peaceful.
I jerked awake groggily sometime later. I had no idea how long I had been asleep, but the sun was lower in the sky. I sat up and looked around, wondering what had woken me up. A vibration in my pocket answered me. My cell phone was vibrating. I’d put it on silent when I was at Madisen’s and forgot to unsilence it. I pulled it out.
There was a frantic text from Ajax asking where I was. I quickly typed back a response and told him I was on my way home. I stood up and knocked the dirt off my ass. I started toward the front of the compound. I hadn’t made it even halfway back when I saw Ajax running toward me. I hurried as much as I could to reach him. His face was pinched with worry. As we got closer, I held up my hand.