Chapter 11: Ajax
I woke up the next morning to find the sun was well up. Looking at the clock on my nightstand, I saw it was already ten. I never slept this late. Jessica was still snuggled into my arms. I wanted to groan. The feel of her had me hard. I wanted nothing more than to sink into her and lose myself. Last night, she’d been tired and traumatized. I hoped she was better this morning because I couldn’t stop myself. I had to have her.
Easing my hand down between her legs, I stroked her slit. She was so damn soft there. I teased the tiny trail of hair and then her clit. She moved restlessly but didn’t wake up. She must have been truly exhausted. I kept trailing my finger up and down her pussy lips and teasing her clit. In no time, she grew slick with her juices. They were coating my fingers.
Pulling back my hand, I raised her upper leg and slid my cock into her waiting pussy. I groaned at how tight she was. As I slid inside, she jerked awake. I bit her shoulder as I began to stroke in and out of her.
“God, you feel good, baby. I can’t get enough of you and this pussy. I couldn’t wait. I need you,” I whispered as I took her harder. She whimpered and thrust her hips back to meet my thrust. This made me even hotter. Wrapping her leg back over my hip, I ran my hand up to her chest and played with her nipples. They were hard and she was moaning as I twisted them. She grew even wetter. I pounded into her deeper and faster. I wasn’t going to last long this morning. I wanted her too much.
She was now moving back into me as hard as I was into her. My groin was tightening, and I could feel the flutters starting in her pussy. Knowing she was close, I slid my hand up to her throat and gently squeezed, not enough to hurt her or keep her from breathing but just enough to make her hopefully more excited. I hadn’t tried this with her before and I wanted to see how she’d react.
She reacted even better than I’d hoped. She flooded me with more of her juices and moaned louder as she clamped down on me. She screamed as she came. I came roaring after her a few seconds later. The feel of her pulse under my hand made it even sexier. After I emptied myself inside of her and could think, I collapsed behind her on the bed. I tugged her into my arms. She was shaking. I sat up to look over her shoulder. What I saw had me pulling out of her and rolling her over. She was crying.
“Shit! Jessica, I’m sorry, babe. I didn’t mean to hurt you! Is it your throat? I swear I didn’t mean to squeeze so hard.” She shook her head. I frantically tried to see if I’d bruised her. She pushed my hand away from her neck.
“Let me look, baby,” I tried again. She grabbed my hand.
“You didn’t hurt me,” she whispered.
“Then what’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“Because it was so good, and I was relieved.”
“Relieved?”
“Yeah, that you still wanted me.” I jerked up into an upright position and stared at her in astonishment. Had I heard her right?
“What the fuck? Why wouldn’t I want you?”
“Because I ran off and caused all that trouble and then when we got back last night, you didn’t even touch me. You made me shower alone.” She sniffed, and I groaned.
“I’m not happy you ran off, but I’m glad you’re alright. As for not wanting you last night, believe me, I did. I didn’t get in the shower with you because I knew I couldn’t control myself if I did. As you can tell, I broke this morning. I knew you were tired last night. I was trying to be considerate,” I told her truthfully. She dried her tears and sat up beside me. She considered me long and hard. She must have seen what she was looking for. She leaned over and kissed me. I took her mouth eagerly. We spent a few minutes just enjoying each other’s mouths. When we stopped, I smiled and told her, “Good morning, Nymph.”
She smiled. “Good morning, Kellan. After that wake-up call, are you ready for some breakfast?” She went to get out of bed, but I stopped her.
“Not so fast. We still need to talk about yesterday. I don’t ever want you to do something like that again. I almost had a heart attack when I found you were gone and then you were at a fucking truck stop. Seeing that man with his hands on you was too much. I wanted to kill him,” I growled. I was starting to get angry, thinking about what could have happened to her.
“I’m sorry I worried you. I just needed to think. Before I knew it, I was in Georgia and exhausted. I didn’t have money for a hotel, so I decided to stay the night and drive back in the morning.”
“So, you decided to come back so we could talk.” She hesitantly shook her head no. My gut clenched.
“Why were you coming back, Jessica, if not to talk?”
“To tell Madisen I was giving my notice and to find a place to move.”
I jumped out of the bed and began to pace. “You mean, you were going to leave me?” She sighed as she nodded.
“What the hell? Why? Did you honestly think that is what I wanted?” I yelled. She flinched. I tried to calm myself down. I didn’t want to scare her again. “Tell me why, baby. I need to know why you would think that,” I said a tiny bit calmer.
“Because you said you were reconsidering us too. You told me to go home, and you’d be staying here to think about our mistake,” she cried out. I closed my eyes. Damn it, I could see how she thought that after what I’d said and the way I’d acted. I opened my eyes and crawled back on the bed. I pinned her under me.
“Listen to me. I didn’t then, nor now do I think we’re a mistake. I was upset thinking you wanted to leave me. I shot off my mouth. Hell, I didn’t even know what I said until later. I’m sorry, Jess. I didn’t mean to scare you and I sure as hell didn’t mean to make you think I didn’t want you. I can’t understand why you continue to think that. You have no idea how beautiful you are, not just physically but in every way. I’m lucky as hell to have you. Why do you not see this about yourself?” She sighed again and then closed her eyes. I thought she wasn’t going to answer me and when she did, she tore out my heart.
“I’ve never been enough. Growing up, all I heard was how ugly I was and how no one would want me, and until you, that turned out to be true. I can’t imagine what you see in me that makes you want to be with me, let alone love me like you say you do.” Her words left me speechless for a moment. She’d been told she was ugly? Undesirable? Who in the hell told her that? I grabbed her jaw, and she opened her eyes.
“Who in the fuck told you that you were ugly and undesirable?” I gritted out between my clenched teeth. I wanted to kill whoever it was.
“My stepmom and stepsister did. They told me the whole time I was growing up and other people treated me like I was, over and over.”