“Go back to sleep, Valerie. You need it.”
I shake my head. The idea in my head is stupid. It’s just lingering lust from my dream. It’s just the thrill of surviving hell and having these three men trying to protect me from their world. It’s absolute horseshit and they won’t see it like I do.
But my body aches for pleasure. And I know they can give it to me in spades. They can fulfill every desire, no matter how dirty. I lick across my bottom lip and motion Hunter forward.
He arches an eyebrow. “You need sleep, sweetheart. Please don’t sass me.”
“Then shut me up,” I challenge.
I see the shiver tease his back and he leans forward before hesitating. “I don’t take orders and you’re not ready for anything right now.”
“That’s my choice, not yours,” I counter. “I want you. All three of you. Now.”
“Valerie.” Hunter’s tone sharpens. “You are going through a lot emotionally. I’m not taking advantage of that.”
“It’s not taking advantage if I’m offering.” I tug at my robe, pulling the sash free.
Absolutely stupid, but I want them. Even if it’s wrong and twisted and weird. They saved me and I can’t get that out of my head. They could have left me. They could have saved me and left. They could have just dropped me at a hospital or something after the fact, but they stayed here to make sure I was more than alive.
I can deal with the repercussions tomorrow, but I can at least grab some pleasure from tonight. And I want it. I want them. Idiotic, ill-advised, borderline insane, I know it’s true. I open my robe and look up at Hunter.
His face is the only one I can make out in the darkness. He groans as he looks me over and strokes up from my belly button, between my breasts, along my throat, and to my bottom lip. He gently traces the valley of my lips, his touch featherlight, my skin buzzes in anticipation and need for more.
I suck his thumb, holding his gaze as I do it. This is my choice, no matter what it says about me. I’m choosing him, Chase, and Lie,f right now. Fuck tomorrow. It doesn’t mean a thing. Hunter groans and pulls his thumb back when I lick over the pad.
His mouth comes down on mine and he kisses me passionately, cupping the back of my head in his hand. He kisses me again and again, holding me close. Each one is supercharged with something more than we had the kiss before. Relief, passion, hope, all of it in each and every kiss. I massage his tongue with mine, then open to welcome him deeper.
Drawing back, he turns me to face Chase. Chase cups one of my breasts and feeds me his own string of pleased kisses. He’s tender, sweet, every sweep of his tongue a question until he lets me take over and show him what I want.
He groans and palms my breast before focusing on my hard nipple. He circles it with his thumb and then pinches lightly. “Are you sure, baby doll?”
I kiss him again and nod as I thread my fingers in his hair. “Yes.”
Two hands spread up my legs and a soft kiss warms my ankle. Looking down, I find Lief. I nod again like I need to tell them all yes, that I want this. And Lief doesn’t need another confirmation. He won’t fight me.
He moves further up, pressing his mouth to the inside of my knee and then my thigh.
“You want all of us?” Hunter confirms, drawing my gaze back to him as Chase keeps fondling my breast and sucks my other nipple, teasing me with flicks and swirls of his tongue.
“Please,” I say softly. “Leave me with a good memory.”
Hunter kisses me again, hungry and demanding, giving me everything and holding nothing back. I tug on his shirt and he frees himself of it as I start working on his pants. He catches my hands and kisses my palms before freeing his cock from his slacks. I eye his length hungrily.
I want him, them, everything.
Lief’s hands guide my thighs over his shoulders and he licks over my slit. My hips rock against his mouth and Hunter groans, wrapping his hand around his cock and offering it to me. “One more time. Tell me yes one more time.”
“Yes,” I say obediently. Then remember the bare minimum of Russian I’ve heard in shows. “Da.”
That breaks whatever restraint was lingering. He taps his cock against my lips and I open for him, welcoming him to slide across my tongue and into my mouth. I welcome every inch as I lick and suck. Hunter pants and rocks his hips deeper into my mouth, pulling back just before he hits the back of my throat.
Lief licks deeper, his tongue flattening over my clit as he devours me. Chase groans and I feel him steal one of my thighs, holding me open so Lief can lick deeper, and give me everything without compromise.
Hunter moans and I see his abs shake as I lick his favorite spot, right under the head. Our eyes meet and he nods. “Such a good girl. Once you come for Lief, Chase will fuck you.”
I take him deeper in lieu of saying yes again.
I want all three of them, as much as they can give, right now. I don’t want to think. I don’t want to remember, I just want to feel every bit of ecstasy they can bring me like only they can.