“Wait here.”
Before Luca could say something, Nox was gone. The hot water spewing from the shower head billowed steam, yet it might as well have been ice compared to the heat of Nox’s body. The bathroom door opened and shut.
Clouds of white swirled with the swish of plastic curtain. Then Nox was there again. “I don’t have any lubricant, but the lotion will do.” A cap popped and the scent of cucumber and tea leaves mixed with male musk.
Nox shifted his stance, blocking the path of the water with his wide shoulders. Cold, slick fingers returned to Luca’s ass crack. Nox dipped his finger in and out of Luca’s hole, chasing the cool gobs of lotion.
Again, the anxious need to feel more swelled, and he whimpered every time Nox penetrated him. First one finger, then two. The slow agonizing threat of release rose again. Nox changed the angle of his movements. The urgency building in Luca receded, and there was only the awkward feel of the man’s fingers inside him. Then they were gone, and Luca whimpered.
“Shhh—I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere.” Nox nipped the shell of Luca’s ear. “But I am going to fuck you.”
Luca nodded.
Nox was going to fuck him. He was going to put his cock in his ass. Pressure returned to Luca’s opening, fighting against the tightness, working the ring of muscle to widen. The burn of fingers was nothing compared to the girth of Nox’s cock, spreading Luca until he was sure he would tear.
“Exhale, Luca, just breathe deep, exhale and push.”
Luca tried to coordinate his body, but the cock invading his body stole his focus. Tears coursed down his cheeks, and he bit his tongue. The burn of penetration grew into an agonizing ache.
“Stop. I can’t.” For a terrifying second, he feared Nox wouldn’t, that the man would force his way inside, bury his cock and pummel his ass. What confused Luca more is some small part of him wanted Nox too.
But Nox pulled away, taking the ache with him.
“I’m sorry.” Luca’s voice fractured.
“It’s okay.” Nox shushed Luca and petted his chest. There was no disappointment or anger in his voice.
And there should have been. Luca had not only asked for this: he’d tried his best to convince Nox it’s what he needed. He still believed that, but now he’d made Nox stop.
“Just give me a minute.”
“Luca, it’s okay, you don’t have to do this.”
“I want to. I want you.” He reached back, and Nox caught Luca’s wrist and held it to Luca’s stomach.
“I want you too, but I will not hurt you. I told you that.”
“Please, Nox, we can try again. I won’t tell you to stop, I swear.”
“Shhh—” Nox peppered the back of Luca’s neck with kisses. “Not everyone enjoys a dick in their ass, Luca. It’s okay not to.”
“But you like doing it.” Luca turned his head.
Nox had his eyes closed.
“You do, and I want to do what you like. I just need to get used to it, and I’ll be fine.” He hoped. But he’d had barely an inch inside him, and it had been too much.
A look of pain creased Nox’s features.
“Please, try again.” Luca pushed back, but Nox pulled his hips far enough away, Luca barely brushed the top of the man’s cock. “I swear, I swear I won’t ask you to stop.”
He nodded. “I know, and that’s exactly why I won’t.”
Luca stared.
Nox rubbed his cheek against the back of Luca’s head. After a long moment, he took a step back. Water pelted Luca’s skin, then the numbness ate everything away.
Without Nox against him, there wasn’t anything to feel.