You’ll only ever end up hurt.
“Who called you a monster?” Mila snapped, sounding really furious, “I don’t care who she was, you don’t just say that to someone!”
I sighed, admitting a small part of the truth, “I am a monster, Mila, and I hope you see that as well. My family, what we do, we will never be on the side of good. I’ve done bad things, VERY bad things, and I can’t say that I really regret them. It’s my life, it’s what I’ve grown up as. There was a time that I thought it could be different… but it wasn’t.”
Mila was silent now, looking like she was processing what I had said. I had no intention of telling her the truth about me, and I don’t think I ever will. I just need to make sure that she’s safe right now, and that no harm will come to her. I couldn’t bring her into my mess and allow her to get killed. It would make me no better than those bastards that I’ve been running from.
“I know you’re a part of the Mafia, Liam,” she came clean, shocking me.
I wasn’t expecting that.
“What do you mean?” I demanded, grabbing her by her shoulders, “how did you find out?”
Mila nervously gnawed on her bottom lip, catching my attention but it was no time to be horny right now, “I’m going to be honest here. While I was waiting for you to show up for the past two weeks, I’ve been doing a lot of research. There was nothing on you, per say, but there was a lot on Graham. It wasn’t hard to put two and two together. You’ve already told me you were dangerous, Liam. It wasn’t that hard to figure out.”
“Why did you come with me then if you knew what I am?” I snapped, wondering how she could be so stupid, “I could kill you for all you know. I’m dangerous.”
“I know.” She admitted, reaching across to cup my face, making me freeze, “but I don’t care. I felt this… weird connection to you. Yes, you scared me and I thought you were a little bit crazy, but I found myself missing you.”
Missing me?
“I know you put boundaries in our contract, and I’m not going to break them.” She promised me, her eyes flickering to my lips momentarily, “I can’t say that I’m not tempted to, but I want to lean across here and kiss you. I want you to stop saying bad, hateful things about yourself that aren't true. Yes, you’re dangerous, but it’s just who you are. It doesn’t make you a monster. Trust me, there are worse people out there who fit that title perfectly.”
My heart thudded in my chest, watching her carefully, “I… I can’t give you what you deserve, Mila. It’ll only hurt you in the end.”
Mila swiftly moved across the seat, straddling my lap as she leaned over me, her lips inches from mine, “I’m willing to risk it if you are.”
I should’ve told her no and walked away. It would’ve saved her heart, and it would’ve saved my sanity. But all I could do then was grab a fistful of her hair and drag her against myself roughly, crushing my lips against hers.
Just for tonight, I’ll let myself go.
Mila
It was hot, almost unbearably hot between us as Liam fisted his hand in my hair, pressing me close to him as his lips met mine in a feverish kiss. My heart was pounding in my chest, bracing myself with my hands on his shoulders as I allowed myself to be sucked into him. I almost couldn’t keep up, his tongue dueling with mine.
It was all so fast, our labored breathing echoing in the small confinement of the car. His fingers glided underneath my work skirt, fiddling with the hem of my panties.
“The first time is going to be quick, I can’t control myself right now.” Liam muttered against my lips, “take me out.”
My breath hitched, but I nodded slightly, skimming my hands down his muscular body, breaking our kiss as I wanted to see exactly what I was touching. Liam’s body was pure muscle, feeling it rippling beneath my touch with every movement.
“You’re so handsome,” I whispered in amazement, wondering if we were really doing this.
His lips twitched into a sly smirk, nodding, “keep going, baby girl, daddy’s itching to be inside of you.”
My panties were soaked with my arousal, feeling this empty feeling inside my core. I wanted him buried inside of me, filling this emptiness that couldn’t seem to be contained. Shakily, I unbuckled his pants, reaching inside, barely able to fit my hand around his massive length as I freed himself from the confinements.
My eyes widened in horror and fascination.
“How are you even going to fit?” I squeaked out, seeing how my fingers didn’t even touch wrapped around him.
Liam chuckled, crudely sinking a finger inside of me with a sudden motion, making me gasp at his thick finger sinking inside my tight entrance. It has been so long since I’ve done anything, and it made me a little afraid that he was never going to be able to get inside of me.
“Trust me, it’ll fit.” He growled softly, thrusting his finger inside of me, brushing against that sweet spot inside of me that made me moan with delight, “fuck, baby girl, you’re so tight around my fingers. Are you on birth control?”
Whimpering in pleasure, I nodded my head.
“Good.” He muttered huskily, “because I’m not holding back on you.”