“Yes way.” I found it amusing that I’d shocked her. “Aidan wants to be rich, don’t get me wrong. He likes what wealth affords him, and he wants Lena to be comfortable, his sons and grandsons too. But there’s a cause he’s fighting. Always has been, always will be.”
“God, that’s…”
When she couldn’t seem to find the words, I dipped my head and pressed a kiss to her mouth. “It doesn’t have to make sense to you, but it does to him.
“We didn’t have a choice about becoming Five Pointers, Aoife. Not in the grand scheme of things. Aidan Jr. especially. But we wanted to. That’s the difference.”
“Did all the brothers?”
“No. Eoghan wanted to join the army. Aidan let him, but mostly because Aidan Jr. and I worked on him. Said Uncle Sam could train him up for us.”
She chuckled at that. “Capitalism at its finest.”
I grinned. “I guess. He’s one of the best marksmen around though, so it was worth it. His services command a high price,” I informed her, well aware of the pride in my voice.
At that, she fell silent. “Why are you telling me this, Finn?”
Seemed she’d figured out my walls were down, and my gates were wide open.
Good.
She’d need to know sooner or later.
“I’m telling you because you’re my wife. I trust you.”
Her hand clutched mine. “What’s changed?”
“Me.”
“Because of your dad?”
Aidan was my dad.Fuck, that was never going to be an easy fact to process.
I closed my eyes, shielding them from her, wanting to avoid her perspicacity. “Maybe.”
She hesitated a second. “Finn?”
“Yeah.”
“If you ever need to talk, I’m here.”
She couldn’t know what those words meant, and though I wanted her to be my confessor, for her to know all my sins and the secrets I would forever keep from her, I couldn’t. I wouldn’t. Her soul was clean. Pure. I wouldn’t tarnish her. She was the one clean thing in my world, and I wasn’t going to sully that.
I’d spend the rest of my life making this woman happy.
That was my new goal.
“Thank you, baby,” I rasped, opening my eyes again as I brushed a hand over her belly. “How are you feeling today?”
“Better. No pain.”
Now that had my body stirring. Especially when I thought about how we’d made out on the sofa last night like goddamn teenagers. “Really?”
Her cheeks pinkened. “Really.”
I bowed my head so I could press a gentle kiss to her lips, and then, when she parted them, I struck. My teeth bit down on the fleshy bottom one and she released a moan that had been created by the devil itself to tempt me to sin.
My cock instantly hardened.