She met his gaze, a bit embarrassed.
“My heart has been racing nonstop since I met you, and not just because Jay suggested I should like you. I liked you all on my own. You bring me to my knees.”
“Oh.” She felt the same way about him. About all of them. As weird as that was.
“To answer your question, if I knew I was going to make love with you at some specified time because it was my turn or whatever, I would definitely lock myself in the bathroom first and masturbate so that I could get my first orgasm out of the way. That way I would be able to last longer and not embarrass myself.” He winced. “Although, I suppose it should be equally humiliating that I just admitted all of that.”
She shook her head. “Don’t be embarrassed. I asked. I’d rather you be honest, so I understand better.” She meant that sincerely. It was beyond sweet of him to open up to her like this.
“You want me to tell you more?”
“Yes. Tell me everything.” She squirmed closer, plastering herself to his chest.
“If I were alone with you regularly, I’d rather come in your hand or your mouth the first time than alone in the bathroom. Then I could slow the fuck down and take my time loving you.”
“Oh.”
“Not without your permission, of course. I don’t mean to imply I would ever pressure you to suck me off or anything.” He groaned. “Jesus, I’m botching this.”
She shook her head. “You’re not. I promise. I appreciate your candor.”
He drew in a breath. “Give it to me, sweetheart. What else do you want to know?”
“Okay,” she bit into her lower lips and went for it. “How does it work for the woman?”
He cringed. “Well, okay. So, it’s not the same for women, but then again women are all different. No two are alike, but most can come more times and more often than men. Though I’ve been told that for women it’s more a product of her feelings than biology.”
“What do you mean?” She was confused.
“I mean, as crass as this sounds, guys can orgasm with just about anyone, whereas women usually have a better experience when they’re really into the guy. Emotionally, I mean. So, a woman might not come at all if she’s not interested. She can’t get out of her head to relax. Although, some can just do it anyway and think about someone else, I suppose.”
He dropped his forehead to her shoulder. “You’re killing me.”
She giggled. “I’m sorry.” She ran her hand up and down his back.
He lifted his gaze and looked at her skeptically. “Are you?”
She shook her head. “No. Not really. I appreciate you explaining things to me though.”
He stared down at her for several seconds. “Tell me this… When you’re alone, when you masturbate, how long does it take you to come and how many times can you do it?”
She flushed so deeply that her face felt like it was on fire.
“Hey, now. It’s only fair. I’ve bared my soul to you.” He grabbed her hand, threaded their fingers together, and held her fist against his chest. “Please tell me you’ve masturbated. I get that you haven’t met anyone to have a single opportunity to have sex, but I’ll die right here if you tell me you’ve never experienced pleasure at least at your own hand in twenty-one years.”
“I have.”
He exhaled dramatically.
She giggled, though it was odd laughing at this conversation. “I’m not the most experienced, mind you. I’ve shared a bedroom with my sister my entire life. I’ve rarely been alone. But I did figure it out on my own several years ago, and I’ve touched myself enough to know what an orgasm feels like.”
“Thank God.”
“I can’t say I’m very good at it, nor do I do it very quickly, but then again, I had to be quiet, and I was always afraid Ariel would wake up and catch me. Plus, in my imagination, I didn’t have men like you to draw on for inspiration.”
He smiled, his straight white teeth gleaming in the dim light. “Well, you won’t have to worry about being cautious or quiet here. The walls between the bedrooms aren’t particularly soundproofed so we don’t get away with many secrets inside the apartment, but the walls to the apartments on either side are insulated, so no one outside of our family unit will hear you scream.”
She rolled her eyes. “I don’t scream.”