“I thought I heard you come in,” he said leaning against the opposite wall.
“I had to check on her.” Clearing my throat, I shut the door and leaned on it, facing him.
“You should have told her,” he said, arching a brow at me.
Yeah, I should have told her but I could never find the right time. I couldn’t just come out with, ‘hey, I have a wife’, she would have pulled away even more. That’s not what she needed, she had to have someone who was there for her, who she knew she could come to.
Scowling at him, I grunted, “I fuckin’ know.” I scrubbed my hands down my face, willing the throbbing in my head to stop. I had too many thoughts spinning around in there, and all I wanted to do was slip under the covers with Kay and forget all about them.
“What’s Serena doing back anyway?”
“Fuck if I know,” I growled. She couldn’t have come back at a worse time. I had so much shit going on; finding these girls and finding the people responsible for taking them were high on my list of things to do. To add to that, I was still trying to find Max while still doing my best to keep up with everything. I was being stretched thin and it was starting to take its toll.
Kay was the only one who could calm the noise down. The only one who truly saw me and there was no way I was letting her get away. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t.
“I don’t trust her.”
“Yeah…” Looking up at his frowning face I replied, “Me neither.”
It wasn’t until after I left Serena that I found out how much she had schemed and lied about everything. I couldn’t believe that all my friends had known what she had been doing and not one of them had told me. Would I have believed them? Probably not.
But that wasn’t the point.
Shaking the thoughts from my head, I pushed up off the door.
“You stayin’?” Luke asked, smirking. His eyes flicked from his bedroom door and back to me.
Running my hand through my hair and down my face, I winced at the whimper coming from his bedroom.
“Yeah.” I turned around and was pushing on the door knob just as he said, “What was that?”
Flicking my eyes back to him, I growled. “Nothing.” There was no way that I would be telling him what Kay went through every night.
Shutting the door behind me, I walked straight to the bed and sat on the edge, my hand finding her face without even meaning to. She automatically leaned into it, even when her brain had told her to walk away, her body stayed firmly by my side.
I sat and watched her, making sure that her nightmare was over before moving off the bed.
Undoing my top two buttons, I sat on the chair in the corner of the room. Leaning my ankle on my knee, I drummed my fingers on my leg. It was one of the only other things that calmed me, that consistent beat. Predictable.
I hated change, I hated not being able to control what was happening.
There has only been two times that I’ve felt out of control.
The day that I had walked away from Serena and right now. Not knowing what would happen when Kay woke up had me on edge.
Settling down in the chair, I watched and waited. I wanted to be the first thing she saw when she woke up. I wanted her to know that I wasn’t going anywhere.
That I was always here.
Because I would be, there was no way that I would be letting her go.
She was it for me.
I groaned as I rolled over, the sheets tangled around my legs. My arm automatically reached out for Ty, forgetting what had happened last night. As soon as I felt the empty, cold space, it all came flooding back. Her.
His wife. I still couldn’t believe he had a wife and hadn’t told me. It was time to deal with whatever was going to be thrown my way today, but I didn’t want to move out of this bed. I wanted to stay here and pretend the outside world didn’t exist.
In here I was away from it all, all the secrets.