“No.” His hand wrapped round my arm, soft and firm. “Really.”
I faced him, brows raised.
“Oh yeah? What’s so incredible?”
“I don’t know.” He shrugged. “There’s just something about you that-” He shook his head and let go of my arm.
He looked torn, like he wanted to say something but thought better of it. I leaned back in my seat and watched his fingers as they started to drum on the steering wheel. I’d noticed that he had several different ‘finger drums’. The first was a relaxed one, he did this mostly when we were in the office.
The second one was a little faster, mainly when he watched someone, or was thinking about something.
The third, the one he was doing now was a new one. Erratic.
“Ty,” I whispered. He faced me, his eyes full of confusion.
We stayed like that for several more minutes. Staring into each other eyes, neither of us moving.
“Kay,” he said on a breath, his eyes dipping to my lips.
I was entranced, couldn’t move even if I wanted to. There was nothing but us, nothing else existed.
He moved forward, his tongue tracing along his bottom lip, I watched it slide out and imagined how it would feel to have his lips touch mine.
My phone buzzed with my alarm, signaling that is was time to pick Eli up.
I stared wide eyed at him then scrambled to get out of the car.
“Kay,” Ty reached for me, I dodged him and nearly fell out of the stupid SUV.
“I’m sorry,” I croaked.
What was I thinking? How had I forgotten all about Max and Eli?
I stumbled to my car and tried to get the key in the lock three times before I could unlock it. I heard his boots crunch against the gravel as he moved toward me.
I started the car just as he came into sight. Pushing the car into reverse, I drove out of there.
My hands shook most of the way to pick Eli up. The worst part about it was that I had wanted to kiss him. To see how his lips felt against mine. I tried to tell myself it was because I hadn’t been kissed in so long, at least not the way I wanted to be kissed, but that wasn’t the truth.
The truth was that I had just wanted to. I wanted to feel his lips against mine, I wanted to know how his hands would feel as he cupped my face.
My mind whirled with thoughts the whole way to the preschool. I couldn’t even remember how I got here. It was all a blur.
“Did you have a nice day?” I asked Eli once we were on our way back to the apartment.
“Yeah.” He looked out the window. “Can we go to the park?”
I checked the time.
“Not today, sweetie, maybe Saturday?”
“Okay.”
He looked upset, but he would talk about it when he was ready. There was no pushing Eli, if I pushed too hard he’d clam up and I’d never know what was wrong.
We were both silent the rest of the way. My thoughts wouldn’t stop churning around in my head. Maybe I had imagined the whole thing?
I couldn’t see what someone like him would see in someone like me. Either way, he didn’t know the real me.