CHAPTER29
Kim wasn’t sure she’d ever been more relaxed. And she couldn’t remember the last time she was this happy.
They hadn’t bothered to get dressed. When Justin had come out of the bathroom, he’d quickly cleaned up from their breakfast, then joined her on the couch. He’d gathered her in his arms, holding her as if she were the most precious thing in the world to him.
She circled her index finger around his nipple as she rested her head on his chest. His heartbeat was steady under her ear and the fireplace kept them warm.
“And what are you grinning about?” he asked. They’d been talking on and off, but it had been nice to lie there together in front of the fire, watching the flames dance around.
“I was thinking how much I like this. Being here with you.”
He pressed his lips to the top of her head. “I love being here with you.”
She didn’t miss that he’d used the word love instead of like. Kim knew he cared about her. Hell, they never would have embarked on this experiment if there was nothing there. Physical attraction alone wasn’t worth the potential fallout.
Lifting her head, she met his gaze, searching to see if she was reading too much into his words.
What she saw had her breath catching in her throat. Every logical part of her brain argued with her that it was too soon, or that it was the sex. But Justin was as naked as she was, which meant she could feel every inch of him. He wasn’t aroused at the moment. What she saw in his eyes had nothing to do with sex.
And it wasn’t as if they were strangers. They’d also known each other for half their lives. The only people who knew her better were her family and Ali.
She lowered her mouth to his, then hesitated, remembering where they were and why. “May I kiss you, Sir?”
He smiled and threaded his fingers in her hair. “You may.”
With permission granted, Kim covered his lips with hers. She kept the kiss light, keeping her mouth closed.
His hand tightened in her hair, but he didn’t deepen the kiss.
She looked up to meet his gaze. “I love being with you, too.”
Justin shifted beneath her. He brought his other hand up to caress her cheek. It was his turn to search her eyes. “Are you ready to be mine? No more doubts? No more waiting?”
Kim lowered her gaze. Her fears were still there. Not about her family. She could deal with her brother, and she had a feeling her parents would be thrilled. Her mom had been wanting her to find a good man to settle down with. Justin was a good man.
No, her concerns rested on whether she could be his submissive.
So instead of answering his question, she asked one of her own. “I don’t know if I can be the perfect submissive.”
“Baby, there’s no such thing.”
She bit the inside of her cheek. “I don’t want to disappoint you.”
His fingers massaged the back of her head, sending delicious tingles down her neck. She felt like purring. “I think you’re a better submissive than you think.”
Kim met his gaze again. “What do you mean?”
“You want to please your Dom.”
It was true. But was that enough? “What if I screw up?”
His other hand joined the first, and she had to struggle to keep her eyes open. “I’m sure you will.”
“But—”
“So will I.”
She leaned into his hands. “You’ve been doing this for years. Why would you mess up?”
“Because I’m not perfect either.” One of his hands left her hair and trailed down her neck. Her body was beginning to soften again...prepare itself for him. “But when either of us makes a mistake, we deal with it. That’s how a relationship works. Even the D/s ones.”
It was hard to argue with his logic. “It’s hard to concentrate with you doing that.”
“Doing what?” he asked with way too much innocence. She could feel his cock growing hard once more. He wasn’t unaffected by what he was doing to her.
She tilted her head back, exposing more of her neck.
Justin took advantage. He guided her flesh to his lips and drew the skin into his mouth. Heat rushed to her sex, and she squirmed against him.
He nibbled his way down to her collarbone, then back up to her ear. “Are you mine?”
Even with her body warming and her need for him to be inside her again increasing with each passing second, she knew what he was asking. “I’m yours.”
His hand tightened on her hair. “Again.”
“I’m yours, Sir. Only yours.”
He dragged her mouth to his and kissed her hard. She gasped, and he took advantage, thrusting his tongue inside. The kiss wasn’t gentle, but it wasn’t meant to be. This was about possession. She belonged to him. She’d always belonged to him.
Justin spread her legs and positioned himself at her entrance. Kim felt the tip of his cock rubbing against her sensitive flesh and moaned. She needed him inside her.
As if he knew what she’d been thinking, he ripped her mouth away from his and made her look at him. “No more stalling. No more uncertainty.”
She nodded.
His green eyes darkened as his pupils dilated. “Mine.” He pushed her down onto his erection, not stopping until she took all of him.
One of his hands dug into her hip, helping to guide the movement. He lifted his hips up while driving her down. She moved with him, needed to feel every inch of him claim her as his.
And that was what this was. There was no mistaking that. She was his and he was making sure there was no doubt in either of their minds.
Their mouths came together again as he continued to take her. Her nipples brushed against his chest with the movement, sending sparks through her breasts directly to her clit. Before him, she’d never given much time or thought to her nipples, but now they craved to be touched...played with.
He moved his mouth to her neck once more and she arched her back, silently begging him to go lower...to suck on her breasts.
Justin nipped at her collarbone. “What do you want, baby? Tell me.”
“Please suck on my nipples, Sir.”
“That’s my good girl.” A moment later, his lips clamped around her right nipple.
“Yes!” She held his head to her breasts, not wanting him to stop.
With both his hands on her hips, he drove her down onto his cock with almost painful force. He’d bent his legs to provide more leverage and while it felt great, she needed more.
Kim wanted to touch herself, but she knew she couldn’t. Not unless he told her she could. And for some reason, that sent a thrill through her. Maybe he was right. Maybe she was more submissive than she’d thought. “May I touch myself, Sir?”
He released the nipple he’d been torturing and turned his attention to the other side. He gave the nipple a bite hard enough to make her yelp. “Yes. Make yourself come, and then I’m going to come inside my pussy.”
Her breath caught in her throat again, but this time for an entirely different reason. He wasn’t wearing a condom. And while she was on birth control, she knew the significance. She was his.
Snaking her hand between them, she slid her fingers through her wetness to find her clit. She brushed against him as he moved in and out of her and he groaned. “Get to playing with your clit, you naughty girl, or I’ll have to turn you over my knee again.”
Heat rushed to her center, and she began rubbing her clit. It was swollen and sensitive. She dug her nails into his shoulder, trying to anchor herself. Between Justin fucking her, sucking on her breast as if his life depended on it, and her rolling and plucking her clit, she was ready to fly.
Her orgasm hit her, and she screamed. Ripple after ripple of pleasure coursed through her body.
“Fuck!”
A moment after the word tore from Justin’s throat, she felt his cock pulse within her, shooting his cum inside her. He held her hips down against his pelvis, securing her to him until he’d emptied every last drop.
Justin licked his way up her chest to her throat before capturing her lips again. He made no move to separate them and to be honest, she wasn’t in any hurry either.
He caressed the side of her face with the back of his hand. “How about a shower?”
“I thought you were in charge.”
She felt a sharp pinch to her ass. “I was trying to be nice, but if you insist...”
The next thing Kim knew, he was on his feet, striding toward the bathroom.
They spent the rest of the weekend in various stages of undress. Well, he did. She wasn’t allowed more than socks and the occasional blanket to cover up with when she was cold. Kim had never spent so much time naked before. But considering how often they were having sex, or he was playing with her in some way, clothes would have just gotten in the way.
Sunday afternoon came way too soon. Kim wasn’t ready to go back. She wanted to stay in their cocoon for a while longer.
“Got everything?” He came up behind her and placed a kiss on her neck. She was going to need to dig into her makeup drawer to find some concealer. Her neck was not only red, but there were a few hickeys as well. She loved it when he sucked on her neck, though.
“Yeah. I think I’ve got everything.”
He picked up their bags, and she took one last look around. It had been less than two days, but so much had happened. She didn’t want to leave.
“Kim?”
She shook herself out of it and joined him at the door. “Sorry. I just...”
“We can always come back. Maybe for a long weekend next time. I’m sure Garrett wouldn’t mind.” He opened the door, letting the cool air in. Justin had doused the fire an hour ago, wanting to make sure it was out before they left, so there wasn’t anything to ward off the cold outside air.
Justin had told her more about the cabin’s owner. He was from Chicago but came down to the cabin to get away from the city. “I’d like that.”
After loading the bags into the trunk of his car, Justin slid behind the wheel. The car was nice and warm already, which she was grateful for. Since they were in the middle of nowhere, he’d started the car and let it warm up before they’d left—something he wouldn’t be able to do in St. Louis.
They hadn’t been outside the cabin since they arrived, so this was the first time she was getting to see their surroundings in the daylight. While the trees had looked ominous in the dark, they were tall and majestic with the sun shining down on them. As they drove down the drive to the main road, she almost felt sheltered by them. Safe. Of course, that might have something to do with the person sitting beside her as well.
Kim rested her head on the headrest and smiled. She’d been so worried about their weekend, but it had turned out better than she’d hoped. Not only was she feeling better about her submissive role, she was beginning to embrace it. She loved seeing his reaction when she called him Sir. Or the way his breath hitched when she ran her tongue along the underside of his erection.
She was so lost in her sexy memories that she almost missed the fact that he’d said something. “I’m sorry, what did you say?”
He chuckled. “I won’t ask what you were thinking about over there, you naughty girl, but I asked when you wanted to tell your family. Did you want to see if we can get together for dinner sometime this week?”
The thought of telling her family was a sure way to throw a cold bucket of water on her libido. “I’ll call my mom when we get home and see what her schedule is.”
“Let me know and I’ll be there.” He paused. “I want to get this over with.”
It should be funny, but it wasn’t. Them announcing they were a couple was a big deal and one that would change a lot of things. Justin had been part of their family for almost two decades as her brother’s best friend. She was hoping he’d still be that but going forward he would also be hers.
“I think Mom will be pleased. She likes you.”
He glanced over at her, then back at the road. They were on the highway now and already halfway home. “It’s not your mom I’m worried about.” Then he corrected himself. “I am, but your dad and brother are the wild cards here. I think we can win your dad over, but I don’t know how bad your brother is going to react. He’s going to feel betrayed, and I can’t do anything to fix that.” Justin reached for her hand and laced their fingers together. “I’m not letting you go.”
That warm feeling bloomed in her chest. “I’m not letting you go, either.”
Justin brought their fingers to his lips and gave the back of her hand a kiss before lowering them to rest on his thigh. They drove the rest of the way in silence as they made their way back into the city.
Justin parked in front of her apartment and turned off his car. He wanted to go inside with her. Hell, he never wanted to spend a night without her again. That right there told him how head over heels he was for her.
“Move in with me.” The words were out before he could stop them.
“What?”
He turned to face her, taking both her hands in his. “I want you in my bed. Always.”
The muscles in her neck contracted as she swallowed, and she pressed her lips together. “Don’t you think it’s too soon?”
“No. We’ve waited seventeen years. I’d say it can’t happen soon enough. Besides, if you’re in my bed, I can have my wicked way with you any time I want.”
He was hoping to make her laugh, and it worked. Sort of. She let out the cutest little snort. “My lease isn’t up for another two months.”
“That’s too long.”
Kim held his gaze for a long moment. “You’re serious.”
“I am.” He squeezed her hands. “I’m done waiting. I want a life with you, and I want it now. Not in two months. Not in two weeks.”
She released a loud breath. “That’s a big step.”
“Not as big as me asking you to marry me.”
Her eyes went wide.
“I’m not asking. Yet.” He ran his thumb along the inside of her wrist. “Move in with me. Share my bed. My home.”
He wasn’t sure what she was going to say. Kim didn’t make rash decisions. She was a planner. He knew he’d thrown her a curveball, but he was hoping she’d take the chance.
Kim looked toward her apartment, and he felt his hopes sink. She wasn’t ready.
“I’ll need boxes.”
It took him a moment to register what she’d said. When he did, he could barely contain his joy. “Is that a yes?”
She bit her lower lip and nodded.
Justin nearly leaped into her lap and kissed her. “I love you.”
When she froze, he pulled back, concerned something was wrong.
He searched her face. “What is it?”
“That’s the first time you’ve told me you love me.”
He hadn’t thought about it, but it was true. Holding her face between his hands, he brushed his lips against hers. “I love you.”
Kim looked as if she were blinking back tears. She rested her forehead against his and held his gaze. “I love you, too. I have for a long time.”
“I know,” he said, tucking a lock of hair behind her ear. “We’ve wasted so much time. No more waiting.”
She smiled. “No more waiting.”