Moving to the armchair opposite hers, I laughed, “Couldn’t they satisfy you?” I knew she was hard to please. It was never a problem when she was with me, though.
Leaning toward me, she purred, “No. Not like you did.”
“So you want me to fuck you? Is this why you came here, to my office?” I quirked an eyebrow at her. She was the only woman who knew who I really was. Some weren’t even lucky enough to get my name.
“Yeah,” she shrugged before adding, “You’re the only guy I know who can give me a real orgasm and won’t expect me to have his kids later.”
I let my eyes roam over her. She was beautiful, but I couldn’t stop comparing her to Melody which was why I had to do this. I had to fuck Ruby till I couldn’t think of Melody anymore. Ruby was the kind of girl I should have hanged out with in the first place… not a romantic at heart like Melody Crown.
“If you can get me in the game,” I nodded my head toward my crotch. With a seductive smile she kneeled in front of me. As she rubbed my cock through my pants I closed my eyes, letting myself feel the sensation of her hand, but all I could think of was Melody. Her first hesitant then bold touches. My cock suddenly got rock-hard, not for Ruby, but for my blonde angel. Only for her since I met her.
My?
Fuck! I was so deep in this shit.
“Mmm… you never take long to jump into the game, Hotshot,” I heard Ruby’s voice, but it wasn’t her that I saw when I opened my eyes. It was Melody… standing a few feet away from me, her eyes moving from me to Ruby, her mouth agape with shock or horror or both. I saw her eyes well up with tears.
I hated myself in that moment.
I hated myself so damn much I wanted to vomit.
That moment… I noticed another thing:
No matter how much I tried to ignore the fact…
Melody Crown was the only girl for me.
Only girl I wanted to have.
Only girl I wanted to belong to.
And that moment… I lost the only girl I cared about.
I had spent all weekend in my bed, crying. The pain was so much I didn’t know how to deal with it. I had never been in love before, I didn’t know how much it could hurt, but with him… I knew what a dangerous thing love was.
I didn’t talk to anyone, didn’t shower, didn’t eat properly. I just cried like a depressed teenager. There was something inside my ribcage, where my heart should have been, it was squeezing the life out of me, making it hard to breathe.
I knew I should have left my bed, showered, and stopped acting like a drama queen, but I just couldn’t. If Rebecca had been there with me, I knew she would have kicked my ass. But she wasn’t home this weekend, was visiting her parents in Chicago and I didn’t call her, just replied to her text with a short “have fun” to not ruin her moment.
But now, it was time to decide, I would either keep being depressed or prepare for war. I knew quitting wasn’t an option. Maybe it was the right thing to do, but I didn’t want to. So, the decision was clear to me. I had to get up, do my make-up, and prepare to face him. It wasn’t a war against him, it would be a war against myself. Because no matter how much he hurt me, no matter how much my heart shattered into pieces, each bleeding piece was beating for him. Like me, my heart was stupid, too.
*****
“Melody… are you okay? I called you, but you didn’t answer on Friday,” Emily rushed toward me, concern was written on her features. Being just the two of us between Kellan and Darren pushed us together, we grew fond of each other.
“Yeah, I’m good. Just… can I ask a favor from you?”
“Of course,” she answered without hesitation.
“I…” I didn’t know how to say that, taking a deep breath I tried again, “I’ll be busy with the musical academy and charity projects, you know. So, if I need to communicate with Kel- I mean, Mr. Hawke, can you cover for me?”
She smiled knowingly, “You mean, you don’t want to see him more than necessary, right?”
Sighing, I nodded.
“Okay, consider it done. It’s time for him to come to his office. You go and hide in yours,” she winked at me, making me smile as I walked toward my office.
*****