‘I can’t let you take your clothes off for other men. Even the thought kills me.’
‘That’s not fair. I have debts to pay.’
I walk up to her. ‘What debts?’
She looks up at me. ‘I don’t want you to pay my debts for me.’
‘What debts, Lily?’
‘That’s my business.’
‘Everything about you is my business.’
‘I’m not ready to talk about it. Just leave it, please. It’s personal.’
I frown at this new complication. What the fuck is she involved in? I don’t show her my horror or the horrible thoughts that are running through my head. ‘I don’t want my woman chased by debt collectors,’ I counter reasonably.
‘Please, Jake. Leave it. All this is too soon. Just give me some space, please.’
‘Space? Is that what you want from me?’
I see a flash of something fierce in her eyes. No, she doesn’t want space. She wants to tear my clothes off too. I grab her by the forearms and take her mouth. Sweet. Soft. The taste of her sends me wild. It is as if last night never happened. It is as if I have still not had her yet. The yearning for her rages insides me.
I force open her mouth and she wraps her smooth tongue around mine and sucks hard as if she is feeding on me. She presses her stomach into my fully erect dick, wanting it. I feel myself beginning to lose myself to her.
There is a sound nearby and with a gasp she pulls violently away from me. I feel as if some part of me has been torn away. Her housemate puts a hand up. ‘Don’t mind me, I’m just on my way to the kitchen.’
I spare her half a glance before my attention returns to Lily.
She is holding a shaking hand against her mouth. ‘You’d better go,’ she says. She looks white and alone and so troubled that all I want to do is hold her in my arms, but I know it will be the wrong thing to do.
‘I’ll pick you up at seven tonight.’
She nods and I walk out of her flat and call Brianna.
TWELVE
Lily
I get out of the shower and choose my underwear carefully: expensive, lace and net. The heat wave has not let up and it is so hot and humid I put my hair up and wear a white dress that leaves my back bare. I slip on strappy heels and for some reason, perhaps because I have never seen my lips look so plump and swollen, I paint my lips crimson. They dominate my face and make me think of the female monkeys whose butts turn bright red when they are in heat and ready to mate.
The doorbell rings at five minutes to seven.
I open the door and see emerald fire kindle in his eyes.
‘Jesus,’ he exclaims softly, and strokes my cheek with his knuckle. He is wearing a dark red shirt, two buttons undone, the red crystal chain visible when he moves, and black trousers with knife edge creases in them. His shoes are mahogany colored.
He looks like a gangster and leads me to a ridiculously souped-up Range Rover with massive wheels and a row of headlights on the top. I raise my eyebrows and he smiles, guileless as a child. ‘People expect gypsies to have such things. Get in. It’s fun.’
I seriously doubt him but as it happens it is fun and a laugh to be so high up.
He takes me to the fancy, oak-paneled, Michelin-starred restaurant Hibiscus. Wine bottles gleam from their silver buckets. Inside it doesn’t smell of food, but the perfume of Mayfair fat cats. The staff are discreet and faultless in their superlative attention. There are complimentary cocktails, small delicacies and copious amounts of sour bread. The menu is intriguing.
‘What will you have?’ I ask Jake.
‘The roasted suckling pig spread with warm Irish sea urchins.’
‘I’ve never had sea urchins before. Are they good?’