I pulled her head back holding fistfuls of her hair as I stared down at her. A million thoughts were going through my head as I took her in. She wasn’t flinching away form me now but instead her hands were clutching folds of my shirt at my back. Neither of us said a word as we stood there under the moonlight just staring into each other. I knew why I wasn’t talking, I had no words for what was going on inside me, but what was her excuse?
Finally I kissed her forehead and whispered in her ear because I needed to get the fuck out of there and think about this shit.
“Get back inside. I’ll see you tomorrow.” I turned and walked away without a backward glance. That quickly I was back to being pissed. What the fuck was going on here anyway?
The two meddlers seemed to sense my mood because they said nothing when I jumped in the truck and took off. It was going to be a long night, if she could make my body sing from just a few innocent kisses who knew what else she could do to me. Innocent, the word swam around inside my head and did even crazier shit to my heart. If what I suspected was true she was in even more trouble than before; I’m not sure I could walk away from that package.
Chapter 10
“We’re going to the beach bro let’s go.” Josh was in my room first thing the next morning trying to drag me off the bed. It was too early for his shit and I wasn’t in the mood. I didn’t want to go anywhere, just wanted to stay here hidden in my room and think about the way things had gone last night. Can’t a guy lose his fucking mind in peace around here?
And I’m pretty sure that that’s what’s going on with me; what else can it be? One minute I’m mad at the world the next I’m hard as fuck. I have this girl that I barely know running around in my head and following me into my dreams while the nut that I was once hooked up with was facing ten to life. This shit reminded me of a scene from one of dad’s old ancient ass movies ‘stop the world, I wanna get off’. If only it were that easy. Kadyn…
That kiss had sealed both our fates; she’d damn near blown off the top of my fucking head. So soft and sweet, her taste was still on my tongue hours later as I’d tossed and turned on my bed trying to make sense of the whole thing. Where did we go from here? Was I even ready to swim in those waters again? I was twisting myself in knots with no real answers.
“I don’t feel like going to the beach bro, you guys go on without me.” I went back to throwing the ball up in the air as I laid back on the bed. “I think you might want to rethink that one bro.” It was the way he said it that had me looking at him suspiciously.
“What did you do now?” I sat up and flexed my shoulders, have to be on the alert when this sneaky fuck was up to his shit, and who knows what it was this time. “Why do you always have to be so suspicious bro? Lets just go you have ten minutes the others are already waiting.” He stood over me and punched me in the shoulder. What the fuck did he want with the beach so early in the damn morning?
I got up and looked for my swim trunks, there was no point in denying him; he’d only nag my ass to death until he got his way anyway.
“Fine get out of here let me get dressed.” My first thought was that it would be hours before I saw Kadyn again. I hadn’t even done my morning drive by; just to make sure she was okay mind you. Yeah right.
Sometimes I parked across from the diner and watched her through the glass as she worked.
Three days a week, she walked to Doc Graves office and I still didn’t know what that was about but I knew it couldn’t be good. Doc was a head shrinker or at least that’s what we call him around here. What could be wrong with her that she had to go see him? And did it have anything to do with her skittishness? Every time I thought of the reasons behind her behavior my guts hurt. If someone had hurt her I’d kill the fucker. And that was just crazy. If I turned into Josh I’d throw myself off the fucking roof, no way I wanted to be that gone over a chick.