Every time we kissed it felt like we were dissolving into each other even more. As if we needed to crawl into each other's skin and become one person. It was astounding how much this little lass meant to me in such a short time.
~ Chapter 15 ~ Flora ~
* In the Dark *
I heard a few fragments of conversation about the hotel some of the lads would be visiting soon. This made my stomach feel like it was being tied in knots.
I had no problem with the thought of a brothel. I knew that men had needs. If they didn’t have a wife, they would naturally look into other ways of fulfilling those needs. If a lady chose to be paid for her intimate company, that was her own business, not mine.
Yet the thought of the Captain with another woman filled me with a fit of strange, sickening anger that I’d never experienced before. I had been slightly jealous of school friends who were allowed more freedom than I was, and of those who were able to eat as much as they wanted. But this didn’t feel like jealousy. It felt like terror and rage stirring together in my belly, the mixture becoming poison.
If the Captain wanted to visit ladies who knew what they were doing in the bedroom, it wasn’t my place to stop him. But perhaps I could please him enough that he’d not want to bother with them? Why pay for ladies of the evening, when he had already paid so much for me?
Somehow it was easier to think of doing my duty and pleasing him rather than admitting the truth to myself. I wanted him because I wanted him. Completely. He told me that the sea was a place where people could take what they wanted, with no regrets. I needed his touch in a way that was brand new for me. I didn’t understand it. Maybe I didn’t have to.
Unless of course he didn’t want me in that way, and I was just an amusement that kept him entertained until he visited the hotel again. For all I knew, he could have a regular lady there. Or wish to visit a new one every time.
I hated not knowing a darn thing about the workings of men’s minds. In a way, it wasn’t my place. But I hated feeling like I was in the dark.
Yet as he called me his sweetheart and kissed me, I felt my worries fade away a bit. Instead of relaxing, however, the heat in our kiss grew and grew. The Captain swept me off my feet, laying me across the bed.
Without even thinking, I quickly unbuttoned his shirt, spreading my fingers as I moved my hands across his muscled chest.
Something came over me. I don't think it was the fear of losing him to another woman. I think it was the intoxicating desire of wanting him for myself. Then I realized he wasn’t stopping me.
He helped me pull his shirt off, then sat me up and helped me remove my dress. Laying under him in nothing but my knickers, my heart was beating far too fast. His kisses became softer, his lips gliding against mine as my hand reached up to grip the back of his hair. It thrilled me to hear a low growl escape his throat.
"Lassie, whatever am I going to do with you?" He smiled seductively, his deep eyes meeting mine as he seemed to ponder for a moment.
"I'm yours," I whispered. "Do whatever you like with me, sir."
His eyes closed for a moment, and I felt a shudder run through him. “There is a little something I've been craving, my sweet girl."
"Anything," I breathed. From the way he was looking at me, I knew that anything he wanted to do would be incredible.
His lips crushed to mine, kissing me so hard it nearly took my breath away. His large hands caressed my breasts gently, as he swirled his thumbs over my tender nipples.
My tiny cries against his mouth seemed to amuse him. Then he began kissing along my jaw, and down my neck. I gripped the back of his shoulders as his tongue swirled around my breast. It was hard not to shriek when his teeth gently tugged at my nipple, teasing me with a little pinch. I barely noticed when he tugged off my knickers until I instinctively spread my thighs a bit.
"You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, Flora,” he whispered, moving to the other side to skim his tongue along my delicate peak until I moaned. "Quiet, you hot little thing," he smiled up at me. “The boys are still awake."
I wasn't sure why having to be silent made what he was doing even more exciting. It was our naughty little secret. His firm kisses wandered down my stomach, stopping at the top of my mound as he looked up at me with a wink. I was stunned as he spread me wide open with his broad shoulders, settling between my legs.
His thick fingers danced along my most delicate skin, gently caressing me while I tried to breathe. I was flooded with feelings I couldn't make sense of. It felt like my insides were becoming juicy and soft. My entire body was melting, and I gasped as his slippery tongue licked firmly through my crease.
"You're positively delicious, my darling lass," he murmured.
He curled his tongue around my sensitive little nub of skin in a way that drove me half crazy. Then I felt his finger dipping into my moisture, beginning to stroke inside me very carefully. The bliss was building through my center, and it felt like lightning was flashing through my veins.
When he managed to wiggle his finger all the way inside, he began to stroke gently all the way in and out. I couldn't believe the sensation of fullness, and once again felt like I was dangling from the edge of a cliff, about to fall into the sea.
Flattening his tongue against my sensitive bit of nerves, the Captain looked up at me with fire in his eyes.
I couldn't speak. I couldn't catch my breath. As he added a second finger, thrusting sl
owly in and out of my snug passage, I felt heat blaze through me. Then I was falling, twitching, complete bliss washing through me as I quivered, squealing beneath him. His other hand clapped over my mouth as I wailed, my fingers clutching his hair as I pulled his mouth firmly against me.
As the wave of complete release overtook me, I felt drained and energized at the same time. When I finally stopped twitching, the Captain looked up at me and licked his lips. "My lovely girl, you're as sweet as I expected.”