Parker was nervous.
I wondered how he’d feel when he realized who was going to run this show. Would it freak him out? Make him realize he didn’t want to be with a man after all?
Was I willing to be less dominant for fear of scaring him off?
The answer to that was a resounding no. I felt deep down that Parker needed someone to take him in hand, lead him through this in a way that left no room for second-guessing.
“Take your clothes off,” I said. “And go get on the bed.”
Instead of the curl of amused smile Parker usually gave me when I bossed him around about other things, he opened his mouth in a surprised little “o” shape.
I lifted my eyebrows. “Listen to what I’m saying, Parks.”
He turned toward the bedroom with a muttered “I’ve never been this hard in my life and you expect me to walk?”
I bit my tongue against a laugh. “If you want something badly enough…” I teased.
When he got to the bedroom, he pulled off the rest of his clothes and crawled onto the bed, flashing his delectable bare ass at me.
That ass is mine.
I wasn’t at all sure what he was up for, but I knew I needed to get my hands on his ass, if nothing else.
He turned around and reached for my wrist to yank me closer. “I want it badly,” he said in a rough voice. “Really fucking badly.”
I climbed on top of him and reveled in the sensation of sliding my bare body across his. Rough body hair, hard muscular planes, the fat roll of his dick… all of it made me dizzy with indecision. Where the hell was I supposed to begin? I wanted it all.
I started by kissing his freckled shoulder and then moving down to take one of his nipples into my mouth. I kept my eyes on him to watch his reactions, but his eyes were glassy enough to reassure me we were still okay.
My hands couldn’t get enough of him. His body was familiar to me—we’d undressed in front of each other many times in locker rooms and at sleepovers, pool parties, and drunken dares—but I’d never been allowed to truly look.
And I wasn’t about to waste this opportunity.
“You’re fucking built,” I muttered, moving over to his other nipple. “You live on potato chips and onion dip, and yet you have this incredible body.”
Parker’s fingers pushed into my hair, and his gaze turned sweetly affectionate. “I love you.”
His words made my stomach swoop low and loop around. I swallowed. “I don’t want you to be here with me like this just because you love me. I want you to—”
Parker grabbed my face and pulled me forward until our mouths were crushed against each other in a feral kiss with teeth and tongue. The breath rushed out of me, and my head spun.
Okay, this wasn’t simple affection. This was raw attraction. Point taken.
I humped against his stomach, pressing hard into the muscular plane of his abs to seek friction for my desperate dick.
“I want to fuck you,” I groaned, trying so hard to let go of my hesitation. “I’ve wanted to fuck you for so long.”
Parker wrapped his legs around mine and arched his own dick up into my inner thigh. “Go slow, though?”
I pulled back in surprise. “You’d let me?”
Parker’s hands stayed on my face and caressed my cheeks. “I’d let you do anything you want. I trust you, and I want to make you feel good.”
“How can you be so cool with this? Why aren’t you freaking out?”
He brushed my hair back and continued to sift his fingers through it. “Because it’s you. I’m comfortable with you. I don’t have secrets from you, Jules. If I don’t like something, I’ll tell you, and I know you’ll listen.”
“Yeah, but—”
“I feel like you’re waiting for me to be upset about having sex with a man, and I hope to hell that’s not the case because it’s insulting. My best friends are gay. I’ve heard many, many graphic stories of gay sex and seen plenty of gay porn. I’m here naked with you, excited to try things and explore this. Stop waiting for the other shoe to drop, and let’s enjoy this. Okay?”
Why was he suddenly more mature than I was?
“I just don’t understand how you can go from being with women to being attracted to me so quickly.”
“Babe. I told you it isn’t as sudden as you think. And I am attracted to you because I love you so much. Because you’re my favorite person in the world and the only person I’d want to try this new thing with. Does that make sense? I trust you. I know you won’t judge me if I do things wrong or act weird.”
I thought about how good I felt with our bare bodies pressed together. “You can’t do things wrong,” I admitted with a grin. “Stay naked and touching me, and we’re good.”