One long leg hangs off the sofa cushions as he stares at me with wide eyes. He’s wearing dark gray sweatpants, no shirt, and I tug down the elastic waistband, thankful for easy access. His huge cock calls to my mouth, the tip leaking his excitement all over his toned abs.
I lick my lips.
“Fuck, Novalee. That mouth will be the death of me.”
“But what a way to go.” Locking my gaze with his, I inch my lips down his shaft, my head going into a tailspin as his unique essence hits my tastebuds. He tucks that tempting bottom lip between his teeth, and urgent fingers thread through my hair as he watches my mouth suck the sanity right out of him.
“Deeper.” The frantic thrust of his hips brings him to the back of my throat. “God yes. Don’t stop,” he pleads, groaning. “Just like that.” His need takes over, and as he spews a string of curse words, he holds me immobile, his mushroom tip pumping between my tonsils.
Closing my eyes, I take it all, my core pulsing at the sound of his throaty moans, the shuddering strength in his hands, the way he takes the power from me while surrendering his own.
And surrender, he does. I peek up in time to watch him arch his neck, lips spread over clenched teeth as he spurts his release down my throat. I’ve barely finished swallowing when he yanks me up by the hair to devour my mouth, and our passion burns hot enough to melt every snow peak on earth.
12
We spend Saturday curled up in front of the fire, kissing and cuddling and talking. He even listens to my voice drone on as I read from the latest shifter romance I found packed among my things in the overnight bag Ford snuck to Sebastian.
Ford certainly knows how to surprise a girl. So does Sebastian, because coming to the cottage was his idea. But despite the downtime, I can’t help but sense something simmering between us. Something secretive and unspoken.
Something we touched on at the ball but haven’t really worked through yet. As usual, time isn’t on our side, so as day turns to evening, and we stand side by side washing the dishes after dinner, I think about how to broach the issue.
“You’ve got something on your mind, princess.” It’s not a question. He dries his hands on a dish towel before sitting me down in a chair and crouching in front of me. “What’s going on?”
“How do you do that?”
“Do what?” he asks.
“Know me so well.”
He arches a brow. “Not only do you wear your feelings on your face, but I’ve been inside of you.” He cups my cheek. “They don’t call it becoming one body for nothing. I’m attuned to you now.”
“I think you’ve always been attuned to me.”
“Are you going to tell me what’s wrong?”
“You didn’t…want me like that last night.” After our frantic session on the sofa, he fed me dinner and held me all night in bed, but he didn’t initiate what I wanted more than anything.
To be one with him again.
He lowers his gaze to my knees. “I didn’t want to rush it.”
His admission digs under the ever-present insecurities that plague me, even when I think they’ve been vanquished.
“I’m sorry,” I choke out.
He raises his head, and there’s no mistaking the shock in his expression. “For what?”
“For being attracted to Liam…and to Ford.”
He lets out a breath. “Don’t apologize.”
“But I didn’t mean to betray you. It just h-happened.” A sob escapes, and I bury my face in the haven of my palms.
Sebastian grabs my hands, forcing me to look at him. “I’d rather you be a willing participant than the alternative. I’m sorry it took me so long to figure that out.” He glances around the kitchen. “For weeks, I sat in this damn place alone, remembering every moment we spent together. Every sigh, every touch, every spark of life you lit inside me.” With a deep breath, he caresses my cheek, his thumb wiping away the tears there. “Finding you and Castle like that fucking hurt. I was pissed and stubborn and clinging to anger to get me through it.”
“I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
“I know that.” He places a finger against my lips. “When you told me what Pax forced you to do, I saw red. It tore me to fucking pieces. So don’t apologize for finding pleasure during these months, because nothing you do will make me love you any less.”