“You’re sorry about my Jeep? Well, that doesn’t fucking fix it, does it?” He glared at me. “You’re going to leave this property. You’re not welcome here. Buy your produce elsewhere,” he said, not letting me finish what I had come here to tell him. He turned then to walk inside.
Hazel gave me a sad smile. “I’m sorry, but you must have expected this,” she said softly.
Part of me had, but then there was the part of me that had hoped Rio knew me better than that. Deep down, he had to know I wouldn’t do something so insane. Apparently, I had been mixing up my childhood Rio with this one, and they were not the same. That was something I had realized more than once, watching him in his life here. The more I observed him, the more I doubted he was there somewhere, lurking beneath the surface.
“I want to pay you back,” I blurted out without a stammer. “I was hoping I could work extra shifts here and give the money to y-y-y-you.”
He paused then, but he didn’t look back at me. “I don’t want you here. You can work extra shifts somewhere else.” He turned his head slightly in my direction then. “Your first payment to me will be your last paycheck. Don’t come pick it up. There won’t be one.”
With that last bit of devastating news, he walked inside, and Hazel turned to follow him.
I stood there for several moments, debating if I should go beg him for at least half of my last paycheck. Just enough to get some milk, bread, and cheese to keep Cullen fed until I could get another job. We were on our last ten dollars, and if I did get a job, most of them would make me wait two weeks for my first paycheck.
Tears stung my eyes as the frustration and panic set in. Tory hadn’t thought about any of this when she decided to act like a maniac last night. Now, we had ten dollars, neither of us had a job, and we had a four-year-old to feed. I knew going inside and begging wouldn’t help. Rio had made it clear he didn’t want me here. He also didn’t want to listen to my problems.
I wanted to hate him for it, and part of me did. He hadn’t known struggle in a very long time. His life here was magical. I had watched him live in this fairy tale, and I wondered sometimes if he remembered what it had been like back at Sumit Head.
Not once in my life had anything been as easy for me as it was for Rio. Sure, his Jeep had been ruined, but he had car insurance and a rich grandfather. He would survive it. No, it wasn’t fair that Tory had damaged his vehicle, but it wasn’t fair that I had to give Cullen water to drink and a piece of fried bologna for dinner either.
By the time I was back in my car, my guilt over what Tory had done was slowly morphing into an extreme dislike of Rio March. His life wasn’t hard at all. Nothing in it was a challenge. Today, his Jeep would go to a body shop and get fixed. He would eat three solid meals and not once worry about his rent being paid. There would be no four-year-old little boy begging him for a glass of milk that he couldn’t afford.
One thing I was certain of was that the Rio I had once loved was no longer. He was long gone. In his place was someone I had no desire to be around.
There were other jobs, and I would get one. I didn’t need Rio’s help to get a good paying job with benefits. I had been desperate most of my life, and I had always found a way out. I would do it this time too. Reaching up, I wiped at the tears that had fallen, angry with myself that I had shed even one of them.
Depending on someone was a mistake I should have learned not to do by now. It never worked. The only person I could depend on was myself. I would take care of things. Cullen would get his milk, and he wouldn’t be forced to eat cheap, unhealthy food.
Holding on to pride was pointless. What had that gotten me in life? Absolutely nothing. I was over it.
Chapter Three
“What’s he drinking?” Tory asked when she walked into the apartment after being gone for only three hours.
“Did you find a job?” I asked her, knowing by the look on her face that she hadn’t.
“Not yet. Did you?” she asked, then pointed at the cup of milk in Cullen’s hand. “How do we have milk? You said we only had ten dollars left, and the gas tank is almost empty.”