“I know this is a big deal. And I know a lot of people would think we’re crazy for going ahead with things the way we are but no one else matters except you and me, our baby. It’s our future and we get to do what we want with it.”
I smile back at her. “I know. I’m just thinking about all of the changes that are going to happen, and to be honest they make me so happy. I don’t feel an attachment to the way my life used to be. Why would I when you’ve come along and improved my life tenfold? I’ve never felt happiness like this, baby. So don’t worry. I’m not concerned with the changes that are coming our way. If anything, I want them to come sooner.”
Macy nuzzles into me. “I’m glad you feel that way. I know you built this life for yourself over the years, and I came along and disrupted the rhythm.”
“Don’t say that,” I growl. “You’ve changed me for the better, Macy. And I want to keep changing. I don’t need anything that I’ve left in the past. All I care about is the future. I mean, it’s going to be different, but in the best way.”
Macy smiles and I know she understands that I’m happy. This is exactly what I really want.
I rest my chin on the top of her head.
“There’s so much to do. We need a nursery for the baby. I could even make the crib by hand,” I murmur thoughtfully. “We have to start shopping for all the things we’ll need immediately, maybe go to a parenting class. Tell all our family and friends. It’s going to be incredible.”
“I hadn’t even thought about those things yet,” she murmurs. “This is really going to take over our lives, isn’t it?” she says with a dreamy sigh.
“It sure is,” I say with a grin. “It’s going to be incredible. Think of all the things we’ll teach our child, all the memories we’ll build, the places we’ll take them. I’ve wanted a child for as long as I can remember, and now I finally get to think about this as my reality, not just a daydream. I can actually put things into action instead of just waiting for the opportunity to arise.” I stare at Macy. “You have no idea what this news has done for me…you’re young, so I guess you might not comprehend how it feels to hit forty and not have any of your goals in reach. I thought the dream of having a family was over for me but you’ve changed that. I’ll always be so grateful to you for this, baby. You’ve given me renewed hope. A new lease on life.”
“Tate, I knew you wanted this but I don’t think I realized just how much,” Macy says, her expression soft. “But you don’t need to thank me. I need to thank you. You made me feel loved at a point in my life where everyone else in the world made me feel the opposite. You’ve given me the gift of a child. You’ve made sure that I don’t have to spend years waiting for all the things you’ve wanted for so long. I’m the lucky one. But I’m so glad I can make you happy. That’s all I’ll ever want in life.”
“That’s all I want to. To make you happy,” I tell her. I lean in to kiss her and feel my entire body buzz with happiness. I still can’t quite get used to this feeling. It evaded me for so long that it feels foreign to me in some way. But when it comes to Macy, I know that this feeling is going to stick around forever. This isn’t the kind of love that is going to fizzle out or die. I knew from the moment I laid eyes on her that she’d change me forever in the best possible way. Now, I get to experience the aftermath of the crazy beginnings of our love affair. I get to experience the endless love, the birth of our child, the possibilities of our future path.
And I get to do it all with my soulmate by my side.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
Macy
With all of the excitement lately, I’ve completely neglected to tell my family all about the exciting changes in my life. I know that I need to tell them everything soon, especially given the fact that I’m pregnant and living with a man that I’ve told them nothing about.
But the thought of telling my parents everything is a little nerve-wracking. I know that they’re probably going to be shocked that I’m dating a man who is twice my age. And given the fact that we only met a week ago, they’ll likely have plenty to say about how fast we’re taking things.