But we can’t. Just like our relationship the ride starts out of nowhere and sends us both flying. As we cascade through the sky I feel myself caving to Tamara completely. She’s going to be good for me, I can just feel it.
12
Tamara
Ring, ring… ring, ring… ring, ring…
I stare up at the ceiling with a giant smile playing on my lips while I wait for Katherine to answer. I’m in such a blissful place, happiness is actually floating through my body, I need to share this joy with my best friend. She’ll be happy for me when it comes to this, she knows more than anyone how much I need this.
“Hello?” she sounds sleepy. “Tamara, is everything okay?”
“Oh, sorry, did I wake you up?” I glance at the time but it’s only 6 PM. “Are you napping?”
“Hmm, yeah I think so. It’s been a busy old week at work and I’m shattered.”
I roll my eyes dramatically. “Are you serious? Girl, once upon a time we were out all night long.”
I think of the photo that Logan found where we were covered in neon paint. I can barely remember that night, or at least I’ve blocked most of it out, but I know me and Katherine used to have a whole lot of fun.
“I know that but I’m old now.” There’s a teasing to my friend’s tone. “I can’t hack it anymore.”
“You aren’t that old! You’re talking like we’re ancient. There’s still some life in you.”
Katherine doesn’t say anything for a while, which isn’t surprising of her. I know what she’
s like when she first wakes up, it takes her a few moments to get her head together. I can wait here patiently until she’s ready to hear me. Mostly because I really need her to hear my words. They’re bursting at the seams, desperate to escape.
“Okay.” She lets out a big yawn, but she’s speaking again. “What’s going on then? How did your date go?”
“It spilled all the way from last night into today.” I bite down on my bottom lip while I think about it. “Dinner last night was incredible, after dinner was phenomenal, and today at the fair was even better.”
This time, Katherine’s silence has nothing to do with her waking up. I can almost hear the cogs in her brain spinning. “Wait a minute, after dinner? What the hell happened after dinner? You didn’t… did you?”
I nod before I speak. “Yep, we sure did, and fuck me it was wonderful. It made me feel incredible.”
“Wow… I don’t know… I don’t know what to say…” She sounds stunned. “That’s awesome, right?”
“Oh, Katherine, it’s amazing.” I roll onto my front. “Honestly, I’m so happy.”
“So, you think that it might actually become something? It isn’t going to be a short term thing?”
I don’t think that at all, but I don’t want her to know I’m getting ahead of myself. I’m still wary that it could fizzle and I don’t want to be left looking a fool. If it does all fall apart I can just say it was a rebound thing to save face. I don’t know why that’s important when it comes to Katherine but I can’t help myself.
“Oh, I don’t know. It could turn into anything, but for now it feels good. He was incredible in bed.”
“Yeah? You’re going to have to tell me everything at some point. Face to face though.”
That’s her cue that she doesn’t want to hear it right now which is fine. I’d much rather see her while I explain how much he sets my body alight. Plus, the more I think about it while I’m lying on my bed, the more my core pulses and my fingers itch to slowly reach down and touch myself… I really have become an animal!
“Alright, alright. I’ll be patient even though you know I’m dying to tell you. When can we hang out?”
“Oh, we should do soon. Do you have a picture to show me? I want to see the man who’s made you so happy.”
“Hold on, I’ll send it to you.” I scroll through the phone until I find the one of us with our faces pressed tightly together in front of the roller coaster which I insisted I took and I send it to her quickly. “There, you got it?”
It takes her a couple of seconds, but soon she replies. “Yep, I got it. Do I know him?”
“Huh? Do you?” Maybe there’s a reason I should have that familiar sensation. “Who is he?”