He hangs up before I can protest.
“Vordigar,” I begin, uncomfortable. “I don’t want you to feel pressured to stay. This isn’t your problem.”
“Isn’t my problem?” The big, horned alien looks at me as if I’ve grown another head. “You think I’m going to just walk away when some keffing praxiian is harassing you? When he’s making you feel unsafe? You think I could let that happen to you?” His jaw clenches as I take a step backward. “You don’t belong to him.”
On that, we agree. “I don’t belong to anyone,” I tell him in a shaky voice.
Vordigar just gazes down at me, an intense look in his eyes. “I want you to belong to me.”
It’s on the tip of my tongue to say that I want that, too, but I can’t let my hopes get up. I shake my head, but he scoops me up in his arms and hauls me back to the bedroom. He kicks the door shut behind us and carries me to the bed, then gently lays me back. I watch as he moves over me, his big arms caging me underneath him on the mattress, but I don’t feel trapped or frightened. I feel safe.
“What do you mean?” I ask him in the barest of whispers.
“I mean I’m staying.” His gaze meets mine. “I’m not leaving. I’ll be your husband. I’ll be the father of your kit.”
A knot of emotional hope forms in my throat. “Why?”
Vordigar frowns. “What do you mean, why? I’m staying to protect you. Isn’t that what you wanted?”
It was before I knew him. It was everything I wanted. But now it feels vaguely unfair. “I don’t want you to stay because you feel sorry for me. I don’t want you to feel like I’ve trapped you here.”
He shakes his head, then grabs my hands and brings them to his lips, pressing them to his mouth in the closest approximation to a kiss that he’s given me. “I’m not staying out of a sense of responsibility. Kef me, woman. I do feel responsible, but that’s not why I’m staying. I’m staying because I want to be with you. Because you deserve a home and I want to be the one to give it to you. Because you look at me like I created the stars instead of the nobody station trash that I am.” He rubs his jaw against my fingers, and for a moment, he looks as vulnerable and intensely needy as I feel. “The bounty hunting—it doesn’t feel right. Not after just being picked up by bounty hunters myself. Maybe others out there are just trying to start over. Maybe they’re tired of the price on their heads and just want to farm. Maybe they’ve settled down with a pretty human and want to make babies with her. How can I go and do that when everything I ever wanted is right here?”
I stare at his mouth, hardly able to believe the words. They’re too perfect, too beautiful. “But—”
“No buts, Piper. I haven’t had a good feeling about that job ever since I met you. I realized over the last few days that I don’t want to be a bounty hunter. I don’t want to wander the stars. I just want to be seen. I want to have someone that means something to me. And I want that to be you.”
I’m too stunned for words. “But…you said you weren’t a farmer.”
“You said you can learn, so I can, too.” Vordigar gives me a mischievous grin. “From what I’ve seen, it’s working with a lot of machines, and I’m good at wiring that sort of thing. Usually without the owner’s permission, but I promise to use my skills for good.”
It’s too perfect. It almost feels like a trap. “What about the baby? Are you sure this is what you want?”
“I know I want you.” He turns my hand over and rubs his cheek against my palm, his eyes closed. “I want you more than I’ve wanted anything in my life. I promise I’ll keep you safe and take care of this farm, praxiian or no praxiian. You don’t have to have a baby if you aren’t ready. We can wait as long as we need.”
Oh. I hesitate. I’ve already paid for the shot, which was costly enough that it’s eaten into my profits for the next year. It’s going to take a long time for the farm to recover from the amount I spent, but it was a gamble. I consider waiting for the shot to run out…and I don’t want to. Out of all this hell, the only thing I had to look forward to was a baby to love. “What if I still want to get pregnant? Does that change anything for you?”
Vordigar pushes my skirts up, his hand moving between my thighs. “I’d say we should get started, then. I want you good and pregnant for when we get married, so no one can tell us no.”