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'He always raises the missions. You know that better than I do.' Dobbs swallowed and bent his intense face very close to Yossarian's, the muscles in his bronze, rocklike jaw bunching up into quivering knots. 'Just say it's okay and I'll do the whole thing tomorrow morning. Do you understand what I'm telling you? I'm whispering now, ain't I?' Yossarian tore his eyes away from the gaze of burning entreaty Dobbs had fastened on him. 'Why the goddam hell don't you just go out and do it?' he protested. 'Why don't you stop talking to me about it and do it alone?'

'I'm afraid to do it alone. I'm afraid to do anything alone.'

'Then leave me out of it. I'd have to be crazy to get mixed up in something like this now. I've got a million-dollar leg wound here. They're going to send me home.'

'Are you crazy?' Dobbs exclaimed in disbelief. 'All you've got there is a scratch. He'll have you back flying combat missions the day you come out, Purple Heart and all.'

'Then I really will kill him,' Yossarian vowed. 'I'll come looking for you and we'll do it together.'

'Then let's do it tomorrow while we've still got the chance,' Dobbs pleaded. 'The chaplain says he's volunteered the group for Avignon again. I may be killed before you get out. Look how these hands of mine shake. I can't fly a plane. I'm not good enough.' Yossarian was afraid to say yes. 'I want to wait and see what happens first.'

'The trouble with you is that you just won't do anything,' Dobbs complained in a thick infuriated voice.

'I'm doing everything I possibly can,' the chaplain explained softly to Yossarian after Dobbs had departed. 'I even went to the medical tent to speak to Doc Daneeka about helping you.'

'Yes, I can see.' Yossarian suppressed a smile. 'What happened?'

'They painted my gums purple,' the chaplain replied sheepishly.

'They painted his toes purple, too,' Nately added in outrage. 'And then they gave him a laxative.'

'But I went back again this morning to see him.'

'And they painted his gums purple again,' said Nately.

'But I did get to speak to him,' the chaplain argued in a plaintive tone of self-justification. 'Doctor Daneeka seems like such an unhappy man. He suspects that someone is plotting to transfer him to the Pacific Ocean. All this time he's been thinking of coming to me for help. When I told him I needed his help, he wondered if there wasn't a chaplain I couldn't go see.' The chaplain waited in patient dejection when Yossarian and Dunbar both broke into laughter. 'I used to think it was immoral to be unhappy,' he continued, as though keening aloud in solitude. 'Now I don't know what to think any more. I'd like to make the subject of immorality the basis of my sermon this Sunday, but I'm not sure I ought to give any sermon at all with these purple gums. Colonel Korn was very displeased with them.'

'Chaplain, why don't you come into the hospital with us for a while and take it easy?' Yossarian invited. 'You could be very comfortable here.' The brash iniquity of the proposal tempted and amused the chaplain for a second or two. 'No, I don't think so,' he decided reluctantly. 'I want to arrange for a trip to the mainland to see a mail clerk named Wintergreen. Doctor Daneeka told me he could help.'

'Wintergreen is probably the most influential man in the whole theater of operations. He's not only a mail clerk, but he has access to a mimeograph machine. But he won't help anybody. That's one of the reasons he'll go far.'

'I'd like to speak to him anyway. There must be somebody who will help you.'

'Do it for Dunbar, Chaplain,' Yossarian corrected with a superior air. 'I've got this million-dollar leg wound that will take me out of combat. If that doesn't do it, there's a psychiatrist who thinks I'm not good enough to be in the Army.'

'I'm the one who isn't good enough to be in the Army,' Dunbar whined jealously. 'It was my dream.'

'It's not the dream, Dunbar,' Yossarian explained. 'He likes your dream. It's my personality. He thinks it's split.'

'It's split right down the middle,' said Major Sanderson, who had laced his lumpy GI shoes for the occasion and had slicked his charcoal-dull hair down with some stiffening and redolent tonic. He smiled ostentatiously to show himself reasonable and nice. 'I'm not saying that to be cruel and insulting,' he continued with cruel and insulting delight. 'I'm not saying it because I hate you and want revenge. I'm not saying it because you rejected me and hurt my feelings terribly. No, I'm a man of medicine and I'm being coldly objective. I have very bad news for you. Are you man enough to take it?'

'God, no!' screamed Yossarian. 'I'll go right to pieces.' Major Sanderson flew instantly into a rage. 'Can't you even do one thing right?' he pleaded, turning beet-red with vexation and crashing the sides of both fists down upon his desk together. 'The trouble with you is that you think you're too good for all the conventions of society. You probably think you're too good for me too, just because I arrived at puberty late. Well, do you know what you are? You're a frustrated, unhappy, disillusioned, undisciplined, maladjusted young man!' Major Sanderson's disposition seemed to mellow as he reeled off the uncomplimentary adjectives.

'Yes, sir,' Yossarian agreed carefully. 'I guess you're right.'

'Of course I'm right. You're immature. You've been unable to adjust to the idea of war.'

'Yes, sir.'

'You have a morbid aversion to dying. You probably resent the fact that you're at war and might get your head blown off any second.'

'I more than resent it, sir. I'm absolutely incensed.'

'You have deep-seated survival anxieties. And you don't like bigots, bullies, snobs or hypocrites. Subconsciously there are many people you hate.'

'Consciously, sir, consciously,' Yossarian corrected in an effort to help. 'I hate them consciously.'

'You're antagonistic to the idea of being robbed, exploited, degraded, humiliated or deceived. Misery depresses you. Ignorance depresses you. Persecution depresses you. Violence depresses you. Slums depress you. Greed depresses you. Crime depresses you. Corruption depresses you. You know, it wouldn't surprise me if you're a manic-depressive!'


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