“Shit. I should have known,” he winces. “Are you ok with this? It was more of a friend thing, but there could be something more. I just…I didn’t want you getting hurt because of it.”
“No, it’s fine. It was a bit of a shock that you’d been out with a girl so soon, but you deserve to find someone who’ll treat you right. Just don’t go parading it around, at least, not just yet, you know. It’s still a bit fresh.”
“I promise.”
I nod as I take a step back towards the door and grab the handle behind my back. “I think maybe I should get going,” I tell him, feeling the emotions beginning to creep up on me.
“Are you sure? Have you eaten? I could get you dinner.”
“Bad idea, Spence. Besides, I was going to grab take out on the way home. You know how I feel about Chinese food.”
His eyes narrow suspiciously. “Really? So, you’re telling me you’re not lying and you’re not actually planning on stopping by the gas station to get endless tubs of ice cream?”
A smile spreads across my face. “So, what if I am?”
“Well, then remember not to get the caramel one. You never seem to like it as much.”
“I won’t,” I whisper as I pull the door open. I step out into the night before looking back through the door and taking in the man who helped me through so very much. “You know I really do love you, right?”
“I know,” he smiles, walking forward and pressing a kiss to my forehead. “I love you too, Tully, but get your fine ass out of here before I drop to my knees and start begging for you to come back.”
I do as I’m told and get my ass out the door because seeing him on his knees, begging for me back might just have me doing something stupid like agreeing.
Knowing that he doesn’t hate me has something settling in my heart and I realize that I’m going to be ok. I can put it all behind me and start working on moving past Rivers.
Maybe Spencer will end up with Lacey or maybe not, all I know is that at the end of the day, I’m going to be doing everything I can to make sure he somehow remains in my life.
Spencer was an incredible friend before he became more than that and I hate myself for hurting him. I know things might be a bit rough as both our hearts are healing, but I’m happy knowing that one day, it’s going to get better.
I get myself home and crash down into bed with my tub of ice cream while scanning through Netflix for something to watch. It’s been two long weeks of agony and confusion, but for the first time in those long weeks, I’m finally starting to feel at peace.
Chapter 10
Rivers
Fuck me. I’m so lame.
If this was any other girl, I’d be arrested for stalking her, but Tully knows better. She knows that I need to be close to her and seeing as though she hasn’t told me to fuck off yet, I’m assuming she’s cool with my random walk-bys. Though, it’s getting harder not to walk my ass in there and tell her enough is enough.
I’ve let her mope for the past two weeks. The first few days were hard because she looked so damn broken. There was a look in her eye that told me to back the hell off and give her some time to think and I’ve been doing just that, but how long is this going to go on for?
I haven’t spoken a word to her since I barged through her apartment, but something has changed. For two weeks she’s looked pained, confused, and hurt. Some of the days she even looked downright pissed off, but today…she looks like the old Tully.
I’ve been working on my Firebird and working out to pass the time because there’s really not a lot to do around here when my best friend is in Italy with my sister and the love of my life is too busy re-perfecting her glare in case she needs to start using it again. She used to give me the filthiest glare every time I managed to piss her off. It was sexy as hell and since leaving for the military, I haven’t seen it, but something tells me it’s going to make a come back one of these days. Though there are a lot of things she used to do that I’m noticing she doesn’t do anymore, me being one of them.
I spent most of last week pulling the Firebird apart and working out what parts need to be scrapped and what can be saved, and so far, it’s actually looking better than I thought. Most of the damage was to the body of the car, but the engine still has a shot at being brought back from the dead. So, this week has been all about searching for the parts that I need to make it happen.