“Because if you don’t tell me, then my imagination will run wild. However, my imagination is probably in for a rude awakening.”
He remains still, pouring himself more liquor.
“We fucked her several times. Yes, what she said is right. Most of the time I was out of it on coke, but sometimes I was well aware of what I was doing.”
Ouch! Do I need to ask any more questions? Why the fuck are women built with this stupid need to know every vile detail of their partner’s past when they are well aware of the hurt and pain it causes when they hear the words.
“Once, in college, I got really drunk at a frat party and let a guy grope my boob while I was Frenching his friend.”
Lex’s shoulders move up and down. I’m confused as to why until I realize he is trying to suppress his laughter.
“True story. There, I give you my almost threesome encounter.”
“Charlotte,” he murmurs, the emerald green in his eyes clouds as he reaches out and touches my wedding ring. “When Roxy sent me a text saying she was in our bed, I thought I lost you.”
I ache for him.
All of him.
This isn’t his fault. I know he can’t control the past coming back to bite him on the ass. I was callous, and the Julian stuff was uncalled for, but I do have one more question to ask.
“You said you never did brunettes. She had the same hair color as mine?”
He gazes at me, confused. “She was blonde. I barely recognized her today.”
Forgive him, Charlie, stop being a fucking cold-hearted bitch.
“You hurt me with what you said about him.” Lex barely manages to get the word ‘him’ out, the pain killing him, and I contributed to that.
“I’m sorry I said those things. Yes, they are the truth, but I said them because seeing her and the way she spoke to me about what you did to her left me absolutely gutted.”
The truth is out, and it’s impossible not to notice his body recoil. I wait for a sign for like ten minutes, and then slowly, he places his arm around me and pulls me into him. I find my nook, getting lost in the place I call home.
“We can do this, okay? I can’t promise the past won’t drag itself up, but I promise never to doubt your love for me.”
“Ditto.”
Slowly, I unbutton the top of his shirt, sliding my hand against his chest and allowing it to rest on h
is heart. With every beat, I know it beats for me, for us.
“So, what now?” he asks, stroking my hair as we both sit quietly on the couch with our thoughts.
“Food, shower, then anal.”
Lex shakes his head, laughter escaping him.
“I’m hoping this sticks, and it’s not just pregnancy hormones?”
I tilt my head, caressing his chin with my hand. “Something tells me it’s not pregnancy hormones, Mr. Edwards. I think you’ve hit the jackpot.”
“What a lucky man I am,” he says with a cocky grin.
“The luckiest in the world.”
LEX
The moment that text appeared on my screen, I knew I had to haul some serious ass back to the apartment.