‘Perhaps.’
She gave a soft moan of agony. ‘It’s easier to deal with you when you’re angry and unreasonable. Why are you doing this to me now, when it’s too late for us?’
‘It isn’t too late.’
If she’d thought she was confused before, she was doubly so now. ‘How can you claim to care about me when you hurt me?’
‘If I didn’t care, I wouldn’t be here now.’ He didn’t try and touch her but somehow that made his simple statement all the more compelling and she screwed her eyes tightly shut.
‘We make each other miserable.’
‘Until we married we were extremely happy together.’ His voice was tense. ‘We need to put all this behind us and move on. Concentrate on our relationship.’
‘I can’t just put it behind me—’
‘So what are you going to do?’ His voice was brutal. ‘Carry on like this? Walking under cars, winding yourself up to a state of such anxiety that you pass out?’
Numb, she looked at him. ‘What do you want from me?’
‘You,’ he said simply. ‘Back in my bed where you belong.’ It was such a typically macho declaration that she closed her eyes tightly, hating herself for even considering it.
‘You hurt me, Raul.’
‘And you hurt me.’
Accepting that as a truth, she opened her eyes. ‘You seriously expect to carry on with our marriage?’
‘You are getting upset again and you are very pale. Last time we talked about this you collapsed on the floor at my feet,’ he bit out. ‘So we’re going to leave the subject until you’re feeling stronger. In the meantime you’ll just have to accept the fact that we’re married and that we’re staying that way. We’re not going to talk
about this again, now.’ He turned and strode towards the bedroom door. ‘Get some rest. I need to do some work.’
Too exhausted and drained to argue with him further, Faith collapsed against the pillows, feeling as though she’d been run over all over again. Now what?
Part of her was worried that she felt so lousy, but another part of her was far too distracted by her relationship with Raul to pay much attention to her own health.
Why was he so determined that they should stay married when it was clear that he’d only married her because of the baby?
What hope was there for them?
And then she remembered just how good their relationship had been—how much she loved him.
Just how much could a person forgive?
Did she dare try to make their marriage work?
If she chose that path, how much pain lay ahead of her?
Her head full of doubts and questions, she couldn’t relax or lie still so she slid out of bed and padded on bare feet out of the bedroom and into the living room.
Raul was sprawled on the sofa, his eyes closed. His shirt was undone at the collar, his sleeves were rolled up and dark stubble emphasised the lean, hard lines of his handsome face.
He looked exhausted and Faith felt her heart twist. Five minutes earlier she’d wanted to slap him. Now she wanted to put her arms round him and hug him.
Confused and infuriated with herself, she was about to turn away when his eyes opened and he saw her.
For a moment they just stared at each other and she felt her cheeks burn as she saw the sudden flare of heat in his eyes. Every feminine part of her exploded with awareness and she knew from the sudden tension in his shoulders that he was experiencing the same powerful reaction.
Acknowledging the strength of the force that drew them together, he gave a cynical laugh. ‘Complicated, isn’t it?’