She dropped an immaculate curtsy to Ross’s unresponsive back and left. Her control lasted exactly as long as it took to get herself out of the dining room and down the stairs to the privacy of her own room where her churning stomach finally revolted.
The strength of her reaction was alarming. Was it just the aftermath of frustrated passion, the tension crackling between them, or the news that he was looking for a wife? Meg wrung the washcloth between her hands and buried her face in the cold dampness, hoping to shock herself into clear thinking.
Of course it was right that Ross should be looking for a wife. It was exactly what she had wished for him. A wife and a family was what he needed to root himself to this place. His own heir would give him the purpose to care for this beautiful estate, this old house. And a wife would give him the love he needed, the affection his life had been lacking for so long.
Am I so utterly miserable because I am falling in love with him? Meg dried her face, frowned at the wan image in her mirror.
Perhaps she was simply unsettled because she had heard nothing from Patrick Jago. When she knew where Bella and Lina were she could plan her own life. That must be it—Ross was finding his place in his own world, she was simply uneasy because she had not. She could not let her old, romantic self sweep her away into another misjudgement as great as her feelings for James had been. Whatever it was, she could not skulk here, she needed to talk to Cook.
‘Why, whatever’s the matter, Mrs Halgate?’ Mrs Harris’s reaction put paid to any illusion that she could put a brave face on this. Cook put down her rolling pin and stared, her forearms floury to the elbows. ‘You look quite put about.’
‘I am quite put about.’ At least she had a genuine excuse for her troubled face. ‘His lordship intends to throw a dinner party for twenty-four next week and wants to know when would be a convenient time for it. And the large dining room is not turned out yet, let alone the fact that I haven’t checked the formal table linen. It could be covered in iron mould.’ Or eaten by moths or whatever happened to linen.
‘Lord love us. What sort of dinner party? We haven’t had one of those here for, what, eighteen months? Still, Heneage will be pleased—he says it’s a crying shame, him and the lads polishing all the silver every week and no one to show it off to.’
‘Lord Brandon is inviting families with unmarried daughters.’
Mrs Harris’s eyebrows shot up. ‘So that’s the way of it.’
‘Exactly. We will be setting out to impress, don’t you think? I will have a look at the large dining room now and see what we can do with it. And I suppose we had better turn out the long drawing room overlooking the gardens; the Chinese Salon is too small for twenty-four.’ There, she was doing this quite successfully, sounding positive and energetic. The butler came in with the postbag in his hand. ‘Mr Heneage, his lordship wants a dinner party for twenty-four next week.’
‘Does he now? Best say Thursday, don’t you think, Mrs Harris? The moon wil
l be at its best and that will give us plenty of time to prepare.’
On the Tuesday before the dinner party Meg was in the kitchen when Heneage came in with the mail bag. He tipped the post out on to the far end of the table from the bread-making and began to sort it. ‘Miriam, you make me a nice cup of tea, there’s a good girl.’
The kitchenmaid lugged the kettle off to the pump as Heneage sorted. ‘All for his lordship except these, which all look like bills.’ He handed a small pile to Meg, then found another at the bottom. ‘Here’s one for you by name—come quite a way by the look of it.’
Meg took it then stared at the blob of blue sealing wax. It would be from Jago; no one else would send her a personal letter. She picked it up. ‘Excuse me.’
There was a seat on the terrace, just beyond the point where Ross had kissed her. Meg found herself there, still clutching the unopened letter. A sharp pain made her realise that she had caught her lower lip between her teeth. She broke the seal and spread out the single sheet.
The Royal George, Martinsdene, May 8th
Dear Mrs Halgate,
As you can see, I have made excellent time and last night reached this inn where I am putting up, convenient to the vicarage. I am representing myself as a student of old church architecture and hope by that means to introduce myself to your father.
However, I must tell you at once that neither of your sisters has been seen in the village for some time.
The words blurred but she made herself read on.
I sought information about the vicar from the landlord under the pretext of wishing to better introduce myself and secure permission to study all parts of the church. According to him, Miss Celina Shelley has not been seen since June of last year and Miss Shelley, not since the end of April.
Where could they have gone? If Ben Wilkins at the George did not know, then there was some mystery about it.
After a couple of tankards of his own brew, the evening being wet and business slack, I had hopes that he would became inclined to gossip and I did nothing to discourage him. But he revealed nothing more and seemed uneasy at having spoken as he did. I have gained the strong impression that he is wary of incurring your father’s displeasure.
Tomorrow I intend calling at the Vicarage to make the acquaintance of your father. I shall also exert every effort to be certain that neither young lady is, in some way, confined in the house
I will write again as soon as I have any further information.
I beg to remain, your obedient servant, Patrick Jago
The letter fluttered down to her lap. Meg sat and stared at it. She had thought they would still be there at home, unhappy, trapped, but safe. Or her best hope had been that they had found husbands that their father had approved of. But this—to have vanished with no explanation, not even substantial rumours of why they had gone—was inexplicable.
And how was Jago to find them? A tear fell with a splash on to his neatly written words, blurring your obedient. Then another, then another until Meg was sobbing, sobbing as she had not done since the night they had opened James’s will and her already shaky world had utterly fallen apart.