"You know what's unfair?" Nicole said after a moment. "Shelly wasn't like me. Okay, I do a pretty good job. I've got big boobs so men like watching me and I think I know how to make love pretty good. And I like what I do. I make good money. I've even got fans send me letters. Hundreds of 'em. But Shelly, she didn't like the business. It was always like she was carrying around a, you know, burden of some kind. She would've done something else if she had a chance. Those religious nuts ... It's not fair they picked her."
Nicole stared at the bookcases for a moment. "You know, one time we went to this movie about this hooker who was also a blues singer. She had a terrible life, she was so sad.... Shelly said that was her, that's how her life was. Blue. We saw it twice, and, boy, did we cry."
Which is what she did now.
Rune set the vodka down and put her arm around Nicole's shoulders. What a pair we are, she thought. But there was nothing like tragedy to bring out sisterliness.
They talked for another hour until Rune's head began to ache and the cuts on her face began to throb. She said she had to leave. Nicole was sentimental drunk and still segued into tears every few minutes but she also would be asleep in a few minutes. She hugged Rune hard and took her number at L&R.
Rune waited for the elevator to take her down to the shiny marble lobby of the building.
Thinking how it was really sad that now with Shelly gone, Rune wouldn't be able to make the movie that would tell everyone about her--about how she was really a serious person, despite what she did for a living, how she wanted to rise above it.
But then she thought: Why not?
Why couldn't she make the film?
Sure she could.
And remembering something that Nicole had said, about the blues, suddenly the title for her film came to mind. She thought about it for a minute and decided that, yes, that was it. Epitaph for a Blue Movie Star.
The elevator arrived. Rune stepped in, rested her face against the cool brass plate holding the buttons and sent the car on its journey to the first floor.
CHAPTER SIX
Just look like you know what you're doing and he won't stop you; he'll let you right in.
Life is all a question of attitude, Rune knew.
She was wearing a blue windbreaker. On the back, in white, were the letters NY. She'd stenciled them on that morning with acrylic poster paint. She kept the Sony Betacam on her shoulder as she walked past the uniformed policeman standing in the lobby of Lame Duck Productions. She nodded in a distracted way, cool, a civil servant nod, confident he'd let her pass by.
He stopped her.
"Who're you?" he asked, a guy who looked like--what was his name?--Eddie Haskell on Leave It to Beaver.
"Film unit."
He looked at her black stretch pants and high-top Keds.
"Never heard of it. What precinct you out of?"
"State police," she said. "Now, you don't mind, I got five other CSs to do today."
"What's a CS?" Eddie didn't move.
"Crime scene."
"CS." He was nodding. "Shield?" he asked.
Rune reached into her purse and flipped open an ID wallet. On one side was a bright gold badge and on the other was an ID card with a sullen photo of her. It gave her name as Sargant Randolf. (The man who sold her the ID an hour before, in an arcade in Times Square, had said, "Your name's Sargant? My generation, they named kids weird things too. Like Sunshine and Moonbeam.") Eddie glanced at it, shrugged.
"You gotta use the stairs. Elevator's broke."
Rune climbed to the third floor. The scorched smell assaulted her again and turned her stomach. She stepped through the door into what had been an office. She lifted the heavy camera and started shooting. The scene wasn't what she expected, wasn't like in the movies where you see a little smoke damage, chairs knocked over, broken glass.
This was pure destruction.
Whatever furniture was in the room had been blown to shreds of wood and metal and plastic. Nothing was recognizable except a blistered file cabinet that looked as if a huge fist had slammed into it. The acoustical tile on the ceiling was gone, wires hung down and the floor was a frozen black sea of paper, trash and chunks of debris. The walls were crisp bubbles of blackened paint. Heat still rose from piles of damp black cloth and papers.